~ Olumis' Potpourri of Roses ~

- Hajj -

2011-10-31T10:01:00.000-07:00

It's the season of Hajj. My mother is in Mecca. Living her all-time dream to be one of Allah's guest. I hope she will always be in His rahmah there. Safe. Always be in an excellent spirit and health. Not to forget, in good companies of Allah's other guests. Able to perform the last ibadah in our 5 pillars of Islam.

Pondering upon my mother's being in the Holy City, I come towards several important points that I, as a Muslim should do as His servant who aspire to perform the Hajj too, and not forgetting, also as a Muslim towards other Muslim who set to sail to go to Mecca.

As a Muslim aspiring to perform Hajj

Dream. Set in heart and mind to perform it too.
Work to realize the dream. This is the most important thing for me. Islam prescribes that the last pillars of Islam is performing the hajj for those who is able (financially/economically and in terms of health). For me, 'able' here means working out to get the ability. Islam teaches the ummah that nothing grows on its own on the trees. Just like my mother, she saved money. Without money, undeniable indeed, one cannot perform it. Without good health, one will fail to do it.

As a Muslim towards other Muslim who set to sail to Mecca

Pray that she/ he will do the ibadah well.
Always give her/ him words of encouragement.
Make her/ him an example to follow. Her/ his going to Mecca should set fire to one's engine to be His guest too.
Be curious on how she/ he can afford to go there. Curiosity is very good in this matter as to help one well plan the ibadah ahead. Learn from her/ him 'HOW'!!! Questioning is the key to ilm.

The Hajj has a lot to offer in terms of hikmah if we think about it from many angles. Just words of sharing. Has been a long time since my last entry. Now in Ulu Sugut, finally, yahoooo... the Internet is working. Lost is the time of darkness. Hehehe...

Ya, any 'khilaf' are all mine.

Take what is good and applicable.

Selamt Hari Raya Qurban!!!

KURSUS

2011-08-23T21:13:00.000-07:00

Kursus yang konon bengkel pemantapan pecutan akhir Bahasa Inggeris PMR yang dibuat hujung-hujung semester macam bulan lapan ini tidak saya gemari. Saya akur dengan idea banyak ilmu baru boleh didapati dari kursus macam kata Shima rakan seperjuangan sedari maktab. Tapi... saya lebih teruja, lebih mahu bersama pelajar saya di sekolah, di kelas, pada saat-saat begini yang saya kira sudah akhir minit untuk kursus seumpama!

Jadi, nekad saya potong kursus dari diari minggu ini. Bersedia untuk beri surat tunjuk sebab. Kemudian sekarang saya berfikir... kalau saya hadiri kan baik juga... terus nyatakan pendapat bengkel pemantapan seumpama patut dijalankan lebih awal.

Tidak. Saya tidak ada niat mencari - mendedah kelemahan pengelola menganjur bengkel di saat begini. Cuma buah fikir saya, bengkel seumpama patut dianjurkan awal biarpun namanya pecutan akhir. Cuma boleh dibincangkan bersama pengelola. Hmmm. Kesal juga tidak hadir.

IT'S ALL BECAUSE OF A MOTORCYCLE

2011-07-18T12:38:00.000-07:00

Rex, in my class, 5 Sastera, had stopped schooling when he was in form 5. Decided, he had enough of books, pencil and class. So, he honeymooned for 2 years when finally he 'saw the light' and hit school again. Very cute of him.

We were hoping his comeback was because he 'saw the light' but our hope was drowned in a drain. He only came to school like the 'Chipsmore' biscuits. Sekijap ada, sekijap tiada!

A thorough investigation revealed he only registered back to school because he wanted a motorcycle. Parents really wanted their eldest child to have his SPM cert, so negotiation made. PAM!!!! Rex got his bike, parents got him back in class. Rupa-rupanya mahu jadi Awie! Naik motor bersiar-siar di tepi ladang getah.

I feel pity for both parents and Rex my student. More pity for the parents. Anger+Pity for Rex.

Dropping out of school, with no concrete reason is far serious matter than not going to the PLKN training. The government gives penalty to youngsters who do not attend the latter. The only available penalty for students who do not stay in school I guess is their parents' broken heart - and - it costs them their future - if only they could see both!!!

HIS TEST

2011-03-16T01:08:00.000-07:00

Nothing beats the feeling after pouring down your trouble to ears that are always ready to hear. Thank you Soleh for lending me your ears.

Don't worry be happy should not be your motto. Face the day positively should. Despair, never ever. Even once.

Because Allah's test is never one that His servants can't bear. And in the end, it always turn you to be a stronger person.

They... Fart... Me...

2011-03-14T03:52:00.000-07:00

Become the victim of fart? Anyone? Oh it's free. Want some? Welcome to my world. You should become a teacher to get this free stuff. Do I hear the words 'yuck', 'gross'...'ewwww'??? Louder please...

Inside the class, just when you, as the teacher are so engross in your 'Teaching & Learning' session, surely the last thing on earth you want is 'distraction'. They can come in many forms. "They fart me," is just one classic example. When I say 'They'... I mean the students. My students. Ahhhh... my lovable students. Putting it in the perspective, "They fart me," is, I think a beautiful way to sum it. They fart their teacher. How devilish.

No one will admit of doing it for sure. Laughing and gigling, they will point at others like it is not a serious matter. Oh, they are so good at it. "Si Stefan yang kantut, teacher..." then Stefan will say, "Tidak si Finisnah." Finisnah will say, "Eih.. si Nelson..." the next student on the accusation list will continue... blah, blah, blah, blah... the pointings goes on and on. I always regret asking them, "Siapa yang kantut ini?" I never fail to lecture for nearly 5 minutes on good manners everytime they give me the bomb though.

But if one really wants to know who the culprit is, this is a proven effective way so far... First, just enjoy the aroma of their rotten fart.. pretend you don't smell it.. huhu.. patiently wait for the time for them to submit their work. Then, shoot the question, "Yang kantut tadi sudah hantar buku kah?" The one who farts would answer, "Sudah cikgu...." Hah, itulah tu orang tu!

I've done it. I got the student red like lobster all around his face after without guard he admitted. His friends laughed madly at him. Laughing with the class I gave the culprit a 360 degree pinch on his stomach, "For your smelly fart. Like rotten cabbagge it was." Then I lectured on good manners.

Sadly but true, after that, they still fart the teachers. (It was not me alone. Other teachers as well...) They become very cautious when I shoot the question, "Yang kantut tu sudah siap kah?"

They really do learn fast to be that cautious. Unfortunately, they do not learn anything about good manners I lectured.

But you know what, "By now I am so super fartproof..." So let them fart all they want. Sometimes I think it helps to liven the class.

My advice, "Don't be a teacher if you are not as super as me!"

JUDGEMENTAL

2011-02-05T18:13:00.000-08:00

I don't like the smell of this....

Disapprove very quickly? Judge and criticize others just so soon?

Take time. For a while, hold your judgement.

Give 'x' a chance.

Let 'x' works out the best at the first.

Second chance?

Up to you then.

To be JUDGEMENTAL or play the GOOD SAMARITAN.

Kesayangan Baru

2011-02-05T06:07:00.000-08:00

Kerja keras.

Bersungguh-sungguh.

Lap bersih.

Hilangkan kotoran.

Sental.

Nyahkan minyak.

Kerana dia...

kesayangan baruku!

Ponsikou Kinorohingan.

Kerana rahmatMu...

tidak terkirakan oleh ilmu hisab...

upaya aku
ada
dia.

Apa?

Kesayangan baru.

INTIFADA

2011-02-04T16:56:00.000-08:00

My brother told me, "A demonstration by people in Jordan was planned to be executed after Jumaat prayer. It's to show support for what the people in Egypt are up to against their government. Nonetheless, it did not take place. Maybe because of the rain..."

I'm a froggie under the coconut shell. I was in the dark of all current issues while I was in Ulu Sugut. Uprising of the people in Egypt against their government is one of them. There is no excuses for my ignorance since there is Internet facality in school. Just what did I do in school? Awww... I'm busy with my position as the Head of English Panel. Excuses... excuses... stop with giving excuses Askidah!

Now. I'm out of the darkness, I say, "I support the Egypt uprising against Hosni Mubarak's regime..."

Eksotika

2011-02-04T05:50:00.000-08:00

kau nampak tuh?

tuh...

yang angkat bakul

bakul buluh tradisi

warna kuning diraja Melayu tu!

ya!!!

tuh la...

uncle yang pakai topi

warna coklat tuh...

kau tidak tahu...

aku panggil tuh...

eksotika Dusun!

eksotika-eksotika Dusun...

uncle

dan

bakul buluh tradisi

buatan tangan

dua-duanya

eksotik.

dulu...

waktu kecil

musim menanam - menuai padi

macam uncle itu

aku juga pernah angkat.

jalan...

dari Kampung Matan

Paka Dua.

Jalan kaki.

kalaulah

gambar aku diambil.

masa yang itu

dibekukan...

aku yang comot

kerana lumpur sawah.

semestinya

menjadi eksotika

juga!

(sengih)

bakul buluh tradisi

wakid Dusunnya.

biarlah aku

tiada gambar

mengangkatmu

yang mungkin

boleh jadi pengingat

pada

the good old days,

pada

pelajaran awal

mengenal erti susah.

aku ada memori itu

di benak

selalu.

aku harap aku

bukan macam Dr. M kata

"Melayu mudah lupa!"

aku kan Dusun.

Dato M for Masidi belum pernah kata lagi kan?

"Dusun mudah lupa?"

Cet...

lupa

sifat universal semua

tiada takluk pada sesuatu bangsa

harapnya aku

tidak lupalah.

Kredit untuk mama

yang meng'order'ku

mengangkat

wakid.

KAU 26, AKU 26, 26... AKU SEDAR!

2011-02-04T04:10:00.000-08:00

Mahu ketemu

sahabat kesayangan aku...

Ummu Qurratu...

Syaziah namanya...

makin langsing

biar baru bersalin

(diam-diam aku cemburu, aku kan makin cumil!)

Dia ada bilang padaku,

"Epen

sedar-tidak-sedar

26 sudah umur kita.

Kan?"

Aku sengih saja...

Aku bilang,

"Odoi...

saya sedar bah!

saya sedar saya 26 young...

kau 26 young...

mesti mahu sedar diri!"

Pecah ketawa...

For old good time's sake...

saya

mengimbas

meminjam

kerana sentiasa melekat di hati

ungkapan popular Ustaz Jusidin,

"Perjuangan kita belum selesai!"

biar berapapun umur kita!!!

TENTU!!!

Gambate Kudasai!

Ulang Baca Dua Jenis 'Karbala'

2010-12-27T06:44:00.000-08:00

Kulit

isi

sedang baca

menghayati

'Peristiwa di Padang Karbala'

dan

'Karbala'

Selawat dan salam untuk Junjungan Besar Muhammad Rasulullah, Ahli keluarganya dan para sahabat.

PS: Go book shopping these books friends!!!
Promotion for DBP and Aberdeen!!!

Kalau Boleh 'Unlike' Macam Dalam Facebook!

2010-12-24T17:24:00.000-08:00

Kau suka sama dia

Kau tak tahu,

mahu bagitau dia

macam mana.

Kau suka sama dia

mahu bagitahu,

tapi malu-malu
sedikit takut

Tuhan saja yang tahu!

Kau suka sama dia

dia ada tanya

“Suka saya tidak?”

tapi malu,
takut

kau jawab pula

“Kamu yang suka saya!”

Kau suka sama dia

betul-betul suka

kau tanya diri sendiri

“Sangat-sangat suka inikah cinta?”

Kau suka betul-betul

sama dia

tidak pernah terluah

Suatu hari dia bagitahu

“Saya suka seorang perempuan”

Kau tergamam.
Tapi kau kan pandai
sebab

cepat-cepat

kau kawal macam-macam rasa.

Takut,

rahsia yang kau malu-malu dedahkan

bocor.
Dalam diam kau rasa bodoh juga

maka,
kau mahu
dia tahu
kau suka dia
dari dulu!

Kau suka sangat-sangat sama dia!

Sekarang kau harap

kau boleh senang ‘Unlike’ dia

macam dalam Facebook!

Kau suka sama dia,

rasa anugerah Tuhan.

Tidak usah ‘Unlike’.

Anugerah

itu

Petisyen Melalui Persatuan Bekas Pelajar SMK (A) Mohamad Ali Ranau

2010-12-23T05:38:00.000-08:00

Dulu lepas SPM, sebab bosan di rumah, saya kerja makan gaji jadi pelayan di restoran. Tentulah di pekan Ranau. Bos saya orang Cina+Dusun=Sino. Dia baik. Dia bagi rehat 1 jam waktu tengahari. Makan free dua kali lagi. Standardlah tu. Dia maklum pekerja Islamnya ada kewajipan sembahyang. Di pekan Ranau masa tu tiada surau disediakan oleh Majlis Daerah. Payah juga. Masjid Ranau memanglah tidak jauh dari pekan. Tapi bagi si marhaen yang tiada kereta mahu jalan kaki turun naik bukit limpas Telekom dan Sekolah Rendah Jenis Kebangsaan Cina Pai Wen, kau imajin sendirilah. Ketiak memang akan lencun. Bau mungkin akan timbul buat pelanggan lari dari restoran saja. Bos mungkin akan marah-marah.

Nasib juga ada satu restoran, Restoran Wak perusahaan bapa kawan saya Muhammad iaitu Cikgu Mohd. Tawil ada surau. Jadi pergilah menumpang di sana. Oh, terima kasih Cikgu! Itu cerita 8 tahun lalu. Sekarang al-hamdulillah sudah ada surau di pekan Ranau. Orang Ranau yang tidak larat dan pantang basah ketiak mahu jalan turun naik bukit Ranau ke masjid ada opsyen untuk 'bertemu Tuhan' di musolla pekan saja.

Lucunya, beberapa pengalaman saya berkunjung, surau pekan dekat Restoran Kembara itu berkunci-kunci sahaja. Entahlah. Mahu diminta dengan siapa kuncinya, saya tidak tahu. Tiada notis ditulis di sana. Mungkin kena berurusan di kaunter Majlis Daerah. Saya kurang pasti. Sebab tiada notis ditulis. Mungkin ada individu tertentu ditugaskan menjaga kunci. Saya mahu tahulah. Begini banyak susah juga. Siapa tahu bukan saya sahaja kesusahan. Orang Ranau yang lain? Musafir dari tempat-tempat lain?

Saya berkongsi rasa dengan kawan-kawan semasa duduk-duduk di kedai makan milik bapa kawan saya Ramdiah iaitu Uncle Wasnin. Uncle Wasnin ni Presiden Persatuan Pengusaha Bas Ranau (PEVADAR).

Komen kawan saya Ramdiah, "Entahlah tu Kide. Lucu kan?" Sambil menuding jari telunjuk ke arah sebuah pondok terbiar bercat merah jambu luntur lebih kurang 5 kaki dari kedai makan bapanya, dia menyambung kata, "Tu bangunan tu, bapa saya pernah minta Majlis buka bah tu untuk jadi surau. Tapi tidak kena bagi!"

Wah. Saya membayangkan kalaulah permintaan Presiden PEVADAR itu dimakbulkan oleh pihak Majlis, tentu saja menjadi 'ruksoh' atau 'kemudahan' semua orang Ranau juga luar Ranau yang men'trafik'kan tempat itu. Buat pengetahuan, kedai makan Presiden PEVADAR ni dekat sungguh dengan perhentian bas dan Unser Ranau-KK-Ranau dan Ranau-Tambunan-Keningau-Ranau. Oh, mesti sebut juga dekat gila-gila dengan perhentian bas dan 4 Wheel Drive Ulu Sugut-Pekan Ranau. Bayangkan waktu Zuhur dan Asar sampai di terminal itu nampak surau itu dan solat. Bayangkan kalaulah pihak Majlis mengkehendaki sedikit caj untuk pengurusan pondok terbiar yang kesian itu jika ia jadi surau. Bolehlah ada pendapatan Majlis Daerah.

Terus, cakap kawan saya Mimi, "Jadi apa khabar tu pendaftaran Alumni sekolah kita? Mohon bah melalui Persatuan. Buat petisyen! Tandatangan semua ahli. Baru ada surau 24/7 buka di pekan Ranau! Haha.."

Itu membuatkan keterujaan menyambung usaha pendaftaran. Move forward! Gambate Kodasai!

RAJIN

2010-12-18T04:35:00.000-08:00

"Tanah di Ulu Sugut kau tahu siapa yang paling banyak beli?" dia tidak menunggu jawapan saya, langsung menjawab soalannya sendiri, "Cina bah! Ketinggalan bah orang kita kalau kau mau tau!" bersungguh dia bercakap. Terjegil-jegil matanya.

Saya naik jelik pula. Menguap panjang-panjang. Bosan!

Saya sengaja meninggi ton suara. Petanda saya mahu menguasai lepak-lepak bual kami, "Hairan apa. Siapa rajin, berusaha lebih, tanpa kira bangsa, etnik, suku kaum, apa-apalah kau mahu kategorikannya... dia memang akan hidup makmur. Makan besar hari-hari sampai gemuk gedempol! Nah kau bila mahu jadi gemuk gedempol? Saya gemuk sudah ni tau!"

"Ai... kau ni bah!"

Kami ketawa paksa-paksa.

"Betul kan? Siapa rajin, berusaha lebih memang banyaklah imbalannya. Dia saja tahu!"

Kawan-kawan belilah nasi lemak saya di kedai Sir Zaini, OK?

I Like ...

2010-12-13T00:04:00.000-08:00

I like

Ulu Sugut

jalannya

fuhyoo

garabel sigal

massage spa

original gitu!!!

I like...

dui

ini baru

tips of the iceberg!!!

Tapi

I tatap like

Ulu Sugut

I lagi-lagi suka

kalau

500 jadi 1500

I like duit!!!

Apa?
Kau tidak suka duit?
Tembirang!!!

Adakah duit

bikin baguih jalan?

I like

kalau ada.

I like

Ulu Sugut!

Tatap.

You Believe in Second Chance? Part I

2010-12-11T04:37:00.000-08:00

“Do you

believe in

second chance?”

You shook your head.

“Woah...

You’re so mean!”

You were put on the defensive line.

Like you cared

but

you said,

I shook my head

because

I’m thinking of another perspective.

Instead of arguing over

believing

in second chance

or not

let's sell

believe in

doing the best

in the first chance

we have!

Again,

“So do you believe in second chance?”

You laughed.

You really don't want to drop it?

I'm Not That Old Yet

2010-12-09T19:48:00.000-08:00

Hey you...

Any past action you regret?

Your answer,

"I'm not that old yet bah!"

(Sambil tersengih-sengih)

Dalam hati...

"Pandailah...

macamlah muda-muda ini

tiada perkara dikesali!"

Tapi nasib baiklah

kau

masih muda.

25 masih muda apa!

Kalau tahu menyesal

Maknanya kau telah

belajar sesuatu!!

Belum terlambat.

Jadi

Jangan kau

tambah penyesalan

mengulang-ngulang

cerita sama.

Touchdown KL

bagitaulah orang.

BULU MATA PALSU: BYE-BYE GAMAN

2010-12-05T10:02:00.000-08:00

Kau tergoda.

Mahu mencuba.

Mahu memakai.

Mahu membeli.

Pada

bulu mata palsu

bisa

melentikkan.

memanjangkan.

menambah pesona.

serba-serbi menyempurnakan

bulu mata kontot-kontot sesiapapun!!!

Tawaran fesyen masa kini.

Kau pandang-pandang,

dimata pemakai,

ianya lawa,

membangkit anggun pengguna,

menambah seksi lirikan kerdip-kerdip mata sesiapapun!!!

Alangkahnyalah
tawaran fesyen masa kini.

Lagipula,

kau tengok cermin

mata Dusun ala-ala Cina kau

kurang menonjol

"Tidak 'popped out'"

Bahasa fesyennya.
Kau membayangkan

membina imaginasi cemerlang

kalau kau pakai

bulu mata palsu

macam gambar di atas tu

kau boleh jadi ala-ala Tyra Banks' The Next American Top Model

Oh alangkah!

Kau girang dalam hati.

Kau golek-golek atas katil

Sambil gigit-gigit jari.

Geram.

Kau jerit-jerit kerasukan

"Aku akan pakai!

Baru hidup lebih bermakna!"

"RM50 untuk 10 pasang,"

info dari kawanmu,

"Dengan kad diskaun

boleh dapat harga panas RM40.

MURAH-MURAH-MURAH GILA-GILA!!!"

Nah!!!

Kau tambah-tambah teruja.

Hati kau meronta-ronta,

jadi bulat,

muktamad,

"Haha... aku akan beli! Tunggu elaun keluar!"

Kaupun membuat pelan

sekian-sekian hari keluar bersama kawan empunya kad

membuat belian.

Tapi

aral

banyak melintang.

Tidak jadi-jadi perancangan kau.

Begini sahajalah

Mudah-mudahan sampai bila-bila

cita-cita pakai bulu mata palsu kau itu

tidak menjadi.

Kerana kalau kau pakai juga

dengan niat gila-gila yang kau imaginasikan

sia-sialah ilmu kau timba dari Ustazah Warsineh

masa kau di bangku 4 Farabi

Kelas Pendidikan Syariah Islamiah

topik larangan memakai rambut palsu

yang mana

Sahabat-sahabat kau

Ustad Salisu

Ustajah Rabiatul Adawiyah

tazkirahkan penuh hikmah

membawa kau

telusuri semula

segala pelajaran

semasa kau di SMK

Agama Muhamad Ali

tersayang!!!

Jadi

bye-bye gaman

bulu mata palsu.

kau tekad

berkata

"Aku cium kau

selamat tingal!"

SAMPAH@RANAU

2010-11-30T03:31:00.000-08:00

Makan di KFC. Di paras 2.

Bangunan yang saya dengar dari rakan guru dijadikan kayu pengukur kemajuan Ranau di dalam dewan parlimen oleh ahli parlimen Ranau, "Ranau sudah maju, ada KFC." Entahlah betul tidak. Barangkali rakan guru itu membuat lelucon. Dia mahu menokoktambah 'Politician Say the Darndest Things'.

Duduk-duduk memanjakan perut meihat aksi kawan yang bermesraan dengan DSLR Nikon. Dia mengambil gambar jauh di seberang jalan raya. Menembusi cermin kaca KFC dia menangkap foto entah apa-apa. Saya tengok di luar, ke arah halaan lensa, sampah-sarap di dalam plastik hitam muntah-muntah keluar. Mungkin angkara onar sang kanin. Rezeki dia.

Saya tengok pembungkus KFC isi-isinya. Wah, kenyang anjing-anjing Ranau. Kawan pula memberi komen, "Saya dengar 3 hari lagi Ranau Tanpa Sampah punya program."

Mengamuklah YB Datuk Haji Masidi Manjun, Menteri Pelancongan, Kebudayaan dan Alam Sekitar Sabah yang tinggi-tinggi Gunung Kinabalu!!! Bukan laki-laki tipikal Dusun pindik-pindik tagap.

Kawan-kawan saya tidak menzoom lebih-lebih merakam longgokan plastik di siring jalan itu. Kalau tidak boleh masuk blog. Dan... "Akan diapakan siapa, oleh siapa?"

Bukan kempen pakai Tupperware!!!

2010-10-22T23:09:00.000-07:00

'Isnin tanpa plastik' di Milimewa dan G-Mart Ranau.

Wah.

Kenapa tiada 'kempen shopping dengan bakul sendiri'? Setiap hari. Bukan Isnin sahaja. Tukarlah tu kempen 'Isnin tanpa Plastik' pergi 'Shopping dengan bakul Sendiri'!Cuba buatlah. Kalau tidak mampu selalu. Berkala. Yalah. Kekadang aku, kau tidak sangka akan buat belian!!!

Cubalah semua orang bawa bakul rotan, bakul plastik yang besar, atau besi, beg kainkah untuk membuat belian. Aish... macam-macam fesyen ada ma! Kita pilih saja.

Semua orang - Sultan Sultanah, Putera Puteri, Tengku, Tun, Dato' Seri Puan Seri, Dato' Datin, Encik Puan, Cik-cik, guru2 macam saya, taukeh balak, petani, nelayan, penulis novel-ceritapendek-puisi, penulis blog - semua orang 1Malaysia.

Saya buat. Taukeh Polo kurangkan RM0.30 sebab saya bawa bakul Tupperware sendiri, dia pula jimat plastik. Baik kan hati saudagar Cina itu?

Jadi, saya doakan bisnesnya terus teguh. Sebab diskaunnya sedikit sebanyak menggembirakan saya dalam usaha melebarkan budi kepada alam.

Mari lebarkan budi kepada alam!!!

Mau beli beg Tupperware? Beli dari adik saya. 25% diskaun boleh runding. Tapi, saya tetap mau untung tiada rugi.

Melebarkan 'pantat' (ooops)

2010-10-22T07:03:00.000-07:00

Aku?
Melebarkan ~~'pantat'~~ bontot.
Duduk-duduk sahaja
tiada buat kerja.
berat badan meyoyo...
~~'pantat'~~ bontot lebar-lebar
kerana malas.

Aduh...
Terbayang...
Dasyat...
Aku takut ~~'pantat'~~ bontotku lebar,
Badan debab melimpah-limpah lemak berbenjolan.
Membesarkan ~~'pantat'~~
bontot
Cukup-cukuplah.

Status kau menumpang-numpang
di rumah orang tua
lagi ini.
Kau...
Sedar-sedarlah!!!
Kerja melebarkan ~~'pantat'~~
bontot
jauh-jauhi.

Katakan
"Tak nak" ala-ala Semenanjung
"Ndak mau" ala-ala Sabahan
pada melebarkan ~~'pantat'~~ bontot.
OK?

Tapi
Kalau mengadap komputer
tiadalah salahnya.
Berbaloi ~~'pantat'~~ bontot dilebarkan kerana duduk-duduk
Kalau kau mencanang nasihat
kau jua
ikuti!!!

Fashionable Murder

2010-09-18T18:23:00.000-07:00

I am so into watching documentaries nowadays. This interest grew ever since I watched 'The Arrival'. There are so many in the list-to-watch.

1. Earthlings and,
2. Food Inc.

to name a couple!!

'Fashionable Murder' for the title of this post is the 16th part of Phase 3 made by the same producer who made 'The Arrival'. Almost done watching Phase 3 now!!

Everyone can watch it on youtube!!! Of course not F.O.C. If you know what I mean... you will pay for the electricity and broadband charge. If you are not on pama anymore!

Watching 'Fashionable Murder' made me want to urge people to read Black Beauty by Anne Sewell!!!

Maybe you will learn how to treat animals right reading it.

Oh, maybe no.

You are just too fashionable to read such thing. Or anything.

Decluttering

2010-09-11T09:25:00.000-07:00

Junks.
All of them.
Firmly decided.
Get rid of them.

Decluttering.
Successfully, so far!
Bravo, bravo.

Crater-faced

2010-09-08T05:33:00.000-07:00

You know how my heart would be like,
if only I could show it to you?
you said one quiet evening
it would be crater-hearted,
still unhealed,
scarred by past love!!!

And I
bite
Glad you couldn’t show.
even FOC
I don’t want to see it
it’s ugly
I might just watch Ugly Betty all day night

Crushed.

Choices.

Mine.
Yours.

Peace.
OK.

Ber-zakat

2010-09-06T19:54:00.001-07:00

Bah, bayar zakat!
Ramai-ramai bayar zakat.
Sendiri.
Sudah kah?

(Nota kaki: Rakaman 2009, sebab 2010 tidak dapat ambil gambar sama Aki Lasim yang antik depan Milimewa Ranau No. 1?)

For God's Sake

2010-09-06T19:29:00.000-07:00

For God sake... 25? Get a place of your own. Move out.

Nice advice for a lady, thanks...

Any for the tougher sex?

~Littlelittlelittlelittlelittlelittlelittle & My Boys VS My Girls & Me~

2010-07-29T18:43:00.000-07:00

"Littlelittlelittlelittlelittlelittlelittle...."

Try saying it fast... very fast like we do tongue twister!!

"Littlelittlelittlelittlelittleliteli,teli,teli,teli.little..."

Maybe you already know it, the result of saying it fast.Well, maybe you don't, not especially if you don't understand Dusun language.

Bah, again say it, fast, faaaaastt... as fast as doing the hateful tongue twister (I hate tongue twister)!! Practive will perfect it...

1,2,3...
"Littlelittlelittlelittlelittlelittle...
teli,
teli,
teli,
little, teli...."

T.E.L.I...
TELI...

You got that word??? You actually say the word 'little', but if you do it fast without halts... you will definitely, unintentionally say the word 'TELI'!!

That's exactly what my boys did during our Literature discussion this very week, only with intention. The intention was being naughthy in the class. I couldn't recall how the word 'little' came into our discussion. The next thing I realized, they (the boys aka the monkeys, the clowns, lots of other names) chanted it, "littlelittlelittlittlelittlelittle..teli,teli......"

"teli,
teli,
teli...." they chanted with big grin spread widely on their faces!!!

TELI - Dusun word for their own private part!!!! And they chanted like it was the biggest joke in the whole universe!!! Funny!!!!

Some of my girls hissed angrily, "Crazy!!! That's your own little brother you are saying. Shame on you oh!"

Like expected, my boys' grin became wider. They looked at eact other with mischief aura and wildly they continued chanting, louder than previous "littlelittlelittle..telteliteli... teli, teli..."

I was not angry at all. At all. In fact, I found the boys' action comical I was trying best to suppress my laughter. But if I laughed, my boys would think, "Aha.. see our teacher gives green light for us to behave in such way!" Must not do that!! Their behaviour was actually such a great disturbance for the P&P.

My resolve went like this, "Oh... nice song!! Why don't all of you boys stand up move in front here... stand facing the whole class, sing the song again like a nice choir, hmmm??"

"Cho, teacher. Don't want," Jairin the spiky hair who initiated the chant pushed his chair backwards, a sign I took as a refusal to my command.

Silence reign the class.

"You are under a lot of pressure recently right? Extra class every evening and night for your PMR? Hmm... you need to destress I know. Maybe that is one of the ways? Hmmm... make it a nice little choir, your chant just now? Here in front of the class?" I challenged.

My boys suddenly sat properly. Their back straight. Books were neatly arranged on their table. Pens that were inside their pencil box now in their hands. Good.

"Nah koto (Dusun for serve you right)..." several of my girls said.

The naughty ones said, "Ah.. teacher we really want to hear the boys sing in front," at this, some of my ones gave my girls their killer glance.

"Well, in fact the whole school can hear it during assembly if... if they chant it again, that will happen!!!" I said!!!

Afterwards, our lesson went smoothly ever after. Not. Who can guarantee 'an ever after' in my class 3 WIRA where my boys and my girls are all 'akal panjang' kind of students!!! Gladly no ever after!

THE END.

Littlelittlelittlelittlelittleee...teli....

Bantuan Yang Dicabul Si Bahlul!!!

2010-06-09T03:15:00.000-07:00

1. Sejarah dunia telah merakam berkali-kali banyaknya bantuan dicabul oleh si bahlul!

2. Terkini, tragedi misi 'Mavi Marmara' untuk Gaza! Tiada yang akan berterima kasih pada pencabulan sang bahlul Zionis yang kerananya bantuan kemanusiaan lagi-lagi tersekat.

3. Begitulah, kebaikan kadang-kala banyak sungguh penghalang dan dinantikan pencemaran kejahatan.

4. Baru-baru ini, seseorang Jane Doe telah mengadu kepada saya. Pengaduannya ini yang membuatkan saya terfikir, "Bantuan berniat luhur selalu saja terdedah pada pencemaran sama macam nombor 1 - 3 di atas!"

5. Cerita si Jane Doe pada saya, "Saya berhati panas sahaja. Marah-marah."

6. "Apahal? Kau marah siapa?" jawab saya. Jane Doe tarik nafas panjang, "Lama sudah saya simpan ni. Mahu bagitau siapa saya tidak percaya siapa-siapa. Barangkali kalau saya berkongsi OK sikit kali perasaan." Saya jawab menjungkit bahu, "Mungkin!"

7. Jane Doe tarik nafas, lepas... lebih lama dari tadi, "Saya mahu kasi cerita kau! Tidak payah komen lepas saya cerita. Saya mahu tahu apa perasaan dia saja untuk sekarang bila orang lain tahu cerita ni! Orang lain yang saya pilih tu kau kio. Harap kau simpanlah. Ini rahsia!"

8. "Bah," saya bilang.

9. Jane Doe mulai bercerita. Saya menadah telinga. "Saya sebenarnya marah sama mama saya. Bukan sepanjang masa. Kadang-kadang marah saya tu tidak timbul, tapi bila saya teringatkan cerita lama yang bodoh, gila, S.I.A.L (dia tidak menyebut perkataan yang ini, tapi mengejanya cuma) tu, saya melenting. Hati saya panas. Mulut saya jadi cabul bila bercakap. Saya jadi orang yang sarkastik. Mahu sakitkan hati orang sahaja bila bercakap. Terutamanya di rumah. Dengan mama saya. Dengah orang-orang di rumah." Dan kala ini, saya melihat muka Jane Doe yang jelita merah padam. Ada sedikit takungan jernih di tepian matanya yang cantik.

10. "Kau mahu tahu apa cerita sial tu?" Pandangan Jane Doe menikam tepat ke mataku. Kali ini S.I.A.L tidak dieja, tapi disebut keras. Soalan Jane Doe itu sebenarnya tidak inginkan jawapan dari saya. Terus sahaja Janne Doe menyambung cerita, "Sepupu saya berbuat buruk ke atas diri saya kau tahu. Sewaktu kecil, umur 7 tahun, dia bawa saya ke kamar mandi. Suruh saya buka seluar. Dia buka seluar juga. Dia... dia...," Jane Doe tersekat-sekat dalam esak. Saya ikut menangis lantas menggenggam erat tangannya. Tidak cukup untuk mententeramkannya, saya memeluk. Lama kami berpelukan.

11. "Saya marah pada mama sebab dia yang bawa lelaki itu tinggal bersama di rumah. Dia tidak tahu pun apa yang sudah terjadi. Memang masa kecil saya tidak faham apa yang lelaki tu buat. Bila sudah tahu, saya jadi jijik. JIJIK!!! MARAH!!! MELAWAN! MEMBERONTAK!!! Buruk sangka... kau tahu. Saya terfikir-fikir kenapa lelaki, saudara yang mama saya pungut tinggal bersama keluarga saya untuk tolong keluarga dia yang susah sanggup buat macam tu. Mungkinkah sebab ahli-ahli keluarga saya ada berbuat jahat sama dia? Kemudian dia balas dendam melalui saya..."

12. Seperti yang dipinta dan sebagai menghormatinya saya akur tidak memberi apa-apa kata selepas Jane Doe meluah.

13. Terkini, Jane Doe memberitahu saya dia berpindah rumah. Keluar dari rumah ibu bapanya. Mahu tinggal berasingan dengan keluarga. Dia berharap bila begitu, dia akan dapat mengelak krisis perasaan apatah lagi bila melihat sepupunya itu bertandang ke rumah. Secara tidak langsung, Jane Doe sebenarnya ingin mengelak berbuat jahat terhadap mamanya. Dalam kata lain dia berharap dapat mengelak menyakiti hati mamanya.

14. Saya berdoa yang baik-baik untuk Jane Doe. Beginilah contoh perbuatan baik yang dicemari kejahatan. Siapa tahu kebaikan mamanya mengundang titik hitam dalam diri Jane Doe.

15. Ada banyak komen lain?

16. Terima kasih Jane Doe sudi berkongsi cerita.

Stillness & Silence

2010-05-28T00:31:00.000-07:00

Stillness.
Silence.
What do you think of them?
Foreign?
Uncomfortable with both?
Try them.
Welcome them.
Not bad at all.
At all.

My Size 9

2010-05-21T03:34:00.000-07:00

At certain stage of life (oh, you-know-when)... on your feet, on your own feet, you should be standing!

So, what kind of feet do you own? Strong enough to hold you? You should know.

~My size 9, thank you!~

Ustad Gemuk

2010-04-24T04:33:00.000-07:00

Baru lepas tengok saifulislam.com. Tidak mampu menepis fikir, "Alahai chubbynya bos..." Lagi teringat perbualan dengan adik saya dulu-dulu di dalam kereta ronda-ronda di pekan Ranau. "Kenapa ustad gemuk-gemuk?" saya yang bertanya tapi saya juga yang menjawab segera sebab terus terfikir jawapannya, "Oh.. barangkali sebab selalu kena jemput pergi kenduri kesyukuran baca doa bah... makan-makan ada banyak." "Betul-betul," adik saya jawab. Kami ketawa-ketawa hati terhibur. Jauh sekali sebenarnya mahu mempersendakan sesiapa. Kami pun sedar juga kami bukan perempuan spesies slim tegar. Huhu..

Topik bual kami itu sebenarnya timbul bila kami imbas semula sedikit kenangan pada guru-guru di sekolah. Kebetulan lalu di sebuah restoran, ternampak ustaz kami yang memang chubby ala-ala saifulislam!! Lepas itu kami mengenang lagi karikatur ala-ala ustad yang dulu-dulu famous betul dalam majalah Ujang. Alahai. Karikatur gempal-gempal itu.

Tapi biarlahbah. Mungkin bukan semua golongan ustad suka jaga badan. Bukan semua ustad ada metabolisma yang tinggi. Senang naik berat badan.

Bukan semua barangkali tahu Nabi ada ajar cara jaga badan. Siap bagitahu perut cuma ada 3 bahagian. Isi tidaklah payah sampai penuh. Oh.. bukan semua orang cepat rasa puas dan kenyang bila makan. Ini bahaya... jaga cara makan sendiri, sudah. Berat badan meyoyo. Ayoyo. Mungkin nilah sebabnya merepek.

Yang Aku Benci

2010-04-16T18:25:00.000-07:00

Di sekolah di Kg. Kaingaran, aku benci beberapa hal. Jalan raya aku okey saja. Walaupun bontot sengal sepanjang jalan. Di mana lagi dapat aku limpas mahu tuju ke tempat kerja?Jarak sekolah dengan pekan yang ada lebih macam-macam kesukaan, kegilaan, kemudahan, kehisteriaan, dan lain-lain pun aku lagi suka.

Walaupun bahang di sekolah ala-ala Shah Alam, biarlah. Tiada hal punya bagi aku.

Yang aku benci... mesin xerox meragam-ragam. Tidak tahu bila mahu pulih, masuk ICU. Mahu xerox bahan P&P susah. Nasib juga ada back-up plan. Tidaklah muridku terabai.

Lagi aku benci, hidup berasak-asak, hilang privasi, ruang terhad, rumah sempit! Aduh, kepala aku ikut penuh bersawang-sawang!!!Kamar mandi dan jamban cuma satu, dan di tempat yang satu.Bayangkan... 6 orang satu rumah!!!Kemudahan asas cumalah satu tiada kembarnya!!!
Matailah, bilang guru-guru SMK Ulu Sugut.

I rest my case.(Sigh). Tuntul di dalam sawah. Move forward with surprises.Pleaselah!

TIRED

2010-04-09T20:00:00.003-07:00

Tired.
Better shut my mouth.
Is it the best?

Buang jauh-jauh penat.
Teruskan bercakap.

Mahukan perubahan.
Biar puas di hati.

Barulah
bagus!

IBU, ANAK, BUDAK KECIL & ANAK-ANAK

2010-03-26T17:36:00.000-07:00

Ibu
dan perhatiannya pada anak
selalu marak,
tidak pernah surut-surut.

Anak
biar sudah berapa besar umurnya
masih si budak kecilnya,
buat si ibu.

Formula asas,
milik seorang ibu
itulah.

Bila begitu
biarlah ibu
melayan diri
bagai si anak-anak.

rindu-rindulah layanan begitu selalu.
kerana
kata Frank McCourt
"you will miss her when she's gone".

Apresiasi kawan,
apresiasi!

Apalagi,
"Sorga di bawah telapak kaki ibu"
Demikian katanya Nabi Muhammad s.a.w.

HUJAN

2010-03-24T05:45:00.001-07:00

Lama menunggu. Pagi 23 haribulan. Hujan. Sudah turun di Ranau. Yeah. Boleh mula menyemai benih. Lada putih. Akan ada hasil benar. Bukan macam Farmville Facebook yang fenomena betul musim-musim ini.

Hujan. Petanda baik. Foreshadow. Lulus ujian semula JPJ.

Hujan. Bersamanya rezeki.

Tuhan.

Terima kasih.

MONEY

2010-03-20T20:35:00.000-07:00

Jual-jual, mari beli!!!
Jual-jual, marilah beli bebeh!!!
Bracelets,
lucky charms,
shawls,
blouses,
dresses,
shoes,
come tuition at my place...
join this Hai-O...
AMWAY... blablabla black sheep....
and so on,
and so forth.

People are creative.
Innovative.
Persuasive.
Genius.
Thick skinned and brave to promote their products.

Driven by a great motivation,
money.
To get extra cash.
More pocket money.
Siapa yang tidak mahu?
Not just for herself or himself to use.
The others in the family too.

Money makes one's world goes round.
You have the bucks,
you can lepak a lot in starbucks,
minum kopi sampai insomnic!!!
Can buy VAIO,
DSLR cam,
travel the world,
get new range of heels, lipsticks, make-ups,
lingeries,
maybe buy respect, power, love??? how very pathetic!!!

more significant build a house.
Significant isn't it?
Bila ada rumah lepak di rumah.
No more wasting money outside!!!

Hmmm...
just hopefully it doesn't make one a mad slave to it.

Silent Treatment

2010-03-15T00:32:00.001-07:00

Soundless.
Mute.
But not dumb at all.
Not at all.
Just another treatment.
So use to it.
Since dinasours' age.
Bring it on.
Great.

Their Hard Work

2010-03-11T02:15:00.000-08:00

Out.
They were already out.
SPM & STPM.
From experience, hard work always produce good results.
So, I strongly hold on to that.
My sister and brother proved this principle is worth to be embraced.
I'm so proud of their result. And they theirs.
In this personal space of mine, I congratulate both of you.
Go on. Go for the stars you are aiming!!! Hit right!!!

Green Monster

2010-03-08T23:00:00.000-08:00

I'm a monster.
Just turned into one.
All because of Nurul aka Ummu Idris.
Green with envy a monster I am.
Hit by the news 'Book Fair' is coming again to town.
The news...
brought upon by Ummu Idris.
Thank you.
Nurul.
(^_^)

Soroh-sorohon ko tambaludnu hiti US kio mongoi ko noh hilo PWTC...
waa... jeles...

Adjectives for My Pupils

2010-02-25T00:29:00.000-08:00

Horny. (Yes oh yes.)
In love.
Confused.
Lazy. Lazy. Lazy.
Itchy. (Yes. Yes oh yes.)
Naugthy.
Attention maniacs.
Trouble makers.
Monkeys.
Pampered Brat.
Immature.
Careless.
Illiterate??

I concluded. These ADJECTIVES are nice to describe my clients.
Very strong judgement?
Who cares because it's the truth.
Even though the truth always hurt.
But, definitely it wouldn't be a fair justice to sentence them all to these ADJECTIVES.
Because come these ADJECTIVES.

Angels.
Dilligent.
Hardworking.
Mature.
Punctual.
Well-disciplined.
Responsible.
Focused.
Ambitious.
Understanding.
Dedicated.
Brainy.
Motivated. Highly.

Some are these. My pupils. My students. My clients.
Compensating the previous list of ADJECTIVES. Gladly.

Hey, hadn't I put on the same cap as the first mentioned list of ADJECTIVES once upon a time? Except the last one - illiterate. Itchy too. I never itch OK... hehe.. but I also fit in the latter category. I'm like the frog. Can live in two world. Bah bah bah... Borink.

Whatever.

What goes around comes around. My former teacher's day was over.
Facing 'me'.
Now it's my turn.
Facing 'me'.

As...

Good.

Periuk nasi, periuk nasi.

Biar Jadi Lastik

2010-02-18T04:12:00.000-08:00

Kejutan.
Baru ada seperti ini
dalam hidup.

Perasaan bagus.
Bertindih.
Meroket di dalam.

Nah, terus apa tunggu?
bawa ke mari lagi
kejutan demi kejutan lain dalam hidup.

Buat cerita...
akan datang,
dengan mereka,
yang bakal mengganti.

Biar jadi lastik...
menolak mereka...
turut cipta...
kejutan.

undang segala rasa.
Maha macam-macam.

Itulah,
Kejutan.
Mari jadikan rebutan.

Nike, Just Do It...

2010-01-28T18:39:00.000-08:00

Choices...
once made,
there's no way to turn back the clock.

Then...
live with the consequences
as you had dare made the choices.

Nike, Just Do It!

a mug of flower

2010-01-01T14:17:00.000-08:00

i love going to aussino..

not really buying...

not exactly to windowshop...

just looking around...

most of the time killing time...

looking at their decor...

captivated was i by...

the flowers arranged in little mugs.

woah... instead of having them in big great vase...

little mugs used!!! cool...

i decided to make one too... not in mug, only glass...

and voila...

kinda blurry pic.

am going to give this to my sis.

a mug of flower will I do once I lay eyes on unused mug around the house.

RECYCLE!!!!

yeah, the little mug of flower in aussino brought me thinking...

'hey, everyone can do this. it's boring to have unused, cracked mug ends up as a stationery holder. a mug of flower!!! why not?'

Thrill Ciptaan Hidup

2009-12-30T17:00:00.000-08:00

1. Dia saudara saya. Pupu.
2. Dia bilang sama saya, "Buatlah thrill dalam hidup.'
3. Hasutan mendalam membawa kepada kecerahan hari-hari.
4. Saya terpengaruh.
5. Daya persuasi saudara saya itu kuat pula.
6. Lebih kuat dari iklan TM yang ramai pelakon Melayu muda-mudinya macam kerasukan dalam konsert (tapi saya pun tidak faham apa yang cuba dipersuasi oleh iklan TM ni).
7. Entahlah mungkin ada juga pelakon India dan Cina. Biarlah diorang histeria dalam nyanyi-nyanyian.
8. Pesona persuasi saudara saya itu letaknya pada intipati hasutannya saja pun.
9. Untuk saya ciptakan thrill dalam hidup.
10. Hidup di dunia hanya sekali.
11. Tiada apa-apa saya hilang mencipta thrill itu!!!!
12. Apalagi 'Nike, Just Do It lalalala...'
13. Oh ya Rabb Tuhan Penuh sifat kasih sayang. Suluhi jalan saya. Biar pupus kelamnya.

Kucing Survivor

2009-12-28T20:58:00.001-08:00

Kucing-kucing putih saya. Pertama kalinya saya ada kucing putih. Bermata biru. Terdahulu, hitam warnanya. Tiger namanya. Dia sudah hilang. Saya mengandaikan sudah mati pun. Kalaulah saya jumpa badanmu Tiger, mesti saya kubur penuh hormat sama macam kucing-kucing terdahulu.

Kucing-kucing putih ini mamanya oren bernama Jinggo. Bapanya yang putih. Putih dan badan penuh kurap. Entah macam mana Jinggo boleh jatuh cinta sama bapa kucing itu. Ah, barangkali bukan soal cinta. Kucing kurap memaksakan. Biarlah.

Ini semua cerita lama. Kucing-kucing ini tiada di rumah sudah. Anak kucing 1 namanya Neko bagi sama Fitri. Anak kucing 2 namanya Angel hadiahkan pada Soji. Yang bongsu Neno bagi sama Arif Papa Cat. Jinggo terpaksa dibuang di asrama SMK Mat Salleh. Dia suka makan ayam di rumah bah. Terpaksa. Tapi dia kucing survivor. Sangat pandai tangkap dan makan tikus juga ular. Dia selamat di mana-mana macam saya. Ya. Macam saya. Aisehman.

Selamat Tahun Baru.
Terus-terusan survive.
Tidak tahu apa-apa cabaran lagi.

Sesekali jangan makan tikus dan ular.
Tapi jadi macam kucing bertindak-tindak.
Mitos pun cakap kucing ada 9 nyawa.
Dia memang kental.

Saya faham apa yang saya bebel.
itu...
paling...
penting.

Nasi Yang Tidak Habis Menangis

2009-12-26T16:08:00.001-08:00

1. Her eyes are beautiful. My friend. I would always be mesmerized by them. We had the chance to lunch together.

2.She said as she put down her spoon and all, "If I eat.... never will I fail to finish the food. No leftover on the plate. LICIN..." we both looked at her plate. Indeed except for the gravy. "That's why I could never succumb to diet and lose weight."

2. I didn't make any comment as she drank her lemon tea through the straw. I knew there was more to come after that gulp. I was right...

3. She went on animatedly, that's one quality I love about her, animated. "A waste bah if it is not finish. Used to it. Upbringing. Mother always nagged since I was a kid the rice will cry if you do not eat it all. How I, as a kid so believed in that, I eat my rice, my food till nothing left. Finished."

4. She grinned and continued, "I bet all mothers said that. To educate their children never to waste food. Yours also..." and we bla bla bla black sheep... chatted away since it has been a long time we did not see each other.

5. She was true about my mother. Same way of educating children to finish their meal. Only, my mother did more than that - the oral part. Yeah, she did more than saying, "Nanti nasi nangis kalau tidak habis!"

6. Indirectly, she had educated me the value through the labour part too. In the action part.

7. The step by step process towards the harvesting of the precious golden skinned ripe paddy.

8. She brought her kids to work, labouring in our land, our paddy field. Planting our own rice.

9. Ever had the experience at hand? Not easy job. I guess when one experiences the thing itself, he/ she learns it best. All the embedded lesson within. Maybe not when he/ she is still very young. Or maybe yes. That is very possible if the kids are fast bloomers at heart. Or maybe later on when he/ she matures.

10. This experience is among the things that made me like my friend. No leftover on the plate.

11. Only that, I lose weight. Managed. With no food wasted. Wondrous thing.

action walks side by side with words = BINGO

2009-12-25T18:24:00.000-08:00

1. Actions speak louder than words.

2. So I remain humbly quiet. Therefore, appeared like one who have no concern of things.

3. What's the use of talking too much with no action followed? Just talks and no action. Silly.

4. Well... I'm just a 'small' one here.

5. Bukan orang lama.

6. Orang baru.

7. Then, my action and my words are less significant... not just less... very very insignificant around here.

8. Or so I thought.

9. I... quiet.

10. Words will be louder if it's followed by actions. Better yet. Walk side by side. Like two great friends. Sherlock Holmes and Dr. Watson.

11. Indeed.

sorban for a girl??

2009-12-02T19:16:00.001-08:00

Perempuan Berkalung Sorban.

On youtube. I'm searching if the vid is there.

If yes, I hope it to be downloaded fast.

Waiting is... duh... sometimes killing!!!

But that, have I to do, since to get the DVD, the chance to go downtown, I don't have.

Just from the title, to know more about this movie I yearn greatly!!!

Especially about the woman in the title, "Perempuan Berkalung Sorban!".

Why... oh why is she depicted with a sorban?

Unusual it is since...

Sorban is mean for the opposite gender.

Watch the movie... must I then.

To have better perspective.

Ontolou, Onton!!! Ontolou, Onton!!!

2009-12-01T22:12:00.000-08:00

And the first saying is, "Of course one will be happy over the moon if one's firstborn is ontolou!"

And the other saying goes, "Hey you so great mom.... question, how was the feeling like your firstborn is onton? Does it reach over the moon?"

The great mom shares, "Over the moon, child... over the moon!!! It's funny to hear the first saying - Of course one will be happy over the moon if one's firstborn is ontolou! Not just funny but very, very, extremely funny. Ontolou or onton, one should just ride their joy over the moon!!"

And thank God. Too.

Thank the Good God the Giver!!!

Glossary:

Ontolou = boy

Onton = girl

These are Dusun words. They are not available in whatsoever dictionary!!!

I feel like...

2009-11-29T22:40:00.000-08:00

1. Ever feel like kicking???

2. Butt?

3. Stone....

4. Whatever??

5. I'm feeling like...

6. Thanks a lot PMS....

7. just you ache there....

8. I'm kicking around now....

Aku Tak Peduli Lelaki Atau Pompuan!!!!!!!!

2009-11-21T19:58:00.000-08:00

1. "Aku tak maulah rasa pengetua perempuan."

kata seorang guru perempuan tempoh hari.

"Cerewet tu..."

2. "Banyak nanti bunga di sekolah kita ni!!!"

Sambung seorang guru lelaki.

"Habis kita kena suruh tanam!"

Disambut dengan gelak tawa guru lain yang turut lepak bersama.

3."Pengetua laki-laki yang best sepanjang saya mengajar. Cepat pantas buat keputusan!!! Pengetua perempuan... aduduiiii.... macam mama-mama!!!"

Lagi gamat ketawa guru.

4. Saya tidak ikut ketawa. Fikiran saya menjauh dari soal suka pengetua perempuan atau lelaki.

5. Sebenarnya, lepak kami itu berpusar pada banyak perkara. Entah macam mana sampai pada bab-bab pengetua dan jantina pengetua yang disukai.

6. Tidak saya katakan pada kumpulan lepak, "Yang penting bukan jantina pengetua. Bukan persoalan bos perempuan atau laki-laki. Tapi... pengetua itu tanpa mengira jantinanya mampukah dia membawa perubahan di sekolah? "

"Perubahan apa?"

"Perubahan kemajuan dari segi kemajuan sekolahlah..."

"Akademik..."

"Kurikulum juga maksudnya.."

"Ko-kurikulum."

"Budaya keilmuan sekolah..."

"Kebajikan anak buahnya... tidak akan dilupa murid-murid punya kebajikan lagi!!!"

7. Kenapa sibuk berkisah mengenai jantina???

Lelaki perempuan....

Aku tak pedulilah soal ini....

yang perlu ditengok prestasi rekodnya bekerja...

tolak tepi jantina!!!

Begitulah alam kerja sepatutnya.

Banyak Cerita VS Banyak Kerja

2009-11-09T04:10:00.000-08:00

1. Lagi-lagi petang tadi saya habiskan masa di tanah. Luar rumah. Anak-anak lada putih sedang membesar. Pesat!!!! Subur tanah di US!!!

2. Kak Es datang menyapa. Erk... mungkin saya yang dahulu menyapa. Lupalah. Hidup bermasyarakat. Beginilah!!!

3. "Besar sudah anak lada?" lebih kurang ada basa-basinya begitu. "Subur?"

4. Saya balas turut ramah. Orang beramah patut dibalas ramah nan seorang peramah juga. Kan? "Ya kak besar sudah ni... tu nah paling besar!" sambil menuding si anak lada yang paling rimbun daunnya. Hati sejuk nyaman. Hasil tangan sendiri.

5. "Rajin...." meniti di bibir Kak Es. Mungkin satu pujian. Mungkin basa-basi hidup bermasyarakat. Begitulah. Hidup bermasyarakat.

6. Saya jawab. Nada ramah-ramah ala-ala Dusun. Kalau kamu faham maksud saya fahamlah kamu apa dimaksudkan ramah ala-la Dusun. Maklumlah memang orang Dusun, ramah pun adalah cara Dusun!! Itulah saya kadang-kadang. "Ya bah kak. Rajin. Di sini mesti cari aktiviti sendiri!!!" Saya bermaksud untuk mengatakan aktiviti sendiri itu yang saya usahakan adalah berkebun-kebun kecil-kecilan inilah. Ini yang termampu saya usahakan.

7. Saya sambung lagi, "Inilah aktiviti ekstra. Hehe..." "Yalah kan." senyum Kak Es.

8. "Mahu bercerita saja sama orang lain cerita bukan ada kak. Bolehlah kadang-kadanag dudu cerita. Tapi cerita ni kak pandai habis bah!!! Kerja tidak pandai habis. Ada saja!!!" Entah dari mana datang idea falsafah itu? Lancar saja keluar dari mulut saya.

9. Ada ruang saat membisu sebentar. "Yalah kan." Sudah berfikir itu dikata Kak Es.

10. Kami pun hidup bermasyarakat. Kak Es turut membantu membuang rumput yang mulai meliar di sekeliling lada. Bersaing sesama mereka. Mahu hidup di atas bumi Allah ini.

11. Sambil-sambil kami bercerita membuat kerja.

12. Kerja lebih banyak dari cerita.

13. Hidup begitu.

14. Mari fahami!!!

15. Tapi di US ni memang saya selalu berfikir aktiviti apa mahu dilaku. Kerja banyak mahu dilaku. Boleh dilaku.

16. Tumpukan pada pelajar.

17. Pengisian rohani untuk pelajar Muslim. Maghrib Isyak. Antara. Kerja banyak. Cerita akan tercipta. Yang baik-baik.

Masjid Makes MONEY!!!

2009-11-07T18:16:00.000-08:00

1. All pink. Pink hijab. Pink blouse. Nope. Not pink jeans. Or else I'll be a pink panther which is... urghhh....

2. I was spending some time in Ranau masjid that one fine day. During Raya to be precise. The 5th day. Up from my head to waist... pink!!! Ok, ok... there's no link with pink and my entry.

3. I brought along my sister's DELL laptop. To the masjid. Supposed to have a meeting there! With Salwa, Mahani, and the rest of the company.

4.They came late. Very late. Being one who hate to wait and waited by I was so frustrated! Beard had start to grow on my chin!!! Horn on my head!!!! I felt like kicking and strangling someone!!!

5. Opened my laptop, I wanted to play games while waiting for the company.The so borng boring... get- me - bored easily games : Zuma, Solitaire... etc!!!

6. Suddenly, I thought of something.... "Isn't it darn great if there's a wireless connection here??? It would be heaven.... I could kill time... surfing for stuff... watch youtube.. "

7.Yeah... it would be awesome!!!! I thought seriously the idea that suddenly hit my head!!!!

8. It would be good for the masjid's image and greatness!!! Imagine wireless in the mosque... wouldn't that attract people regardless of age, race... perhaps religion? Come to the mosque to go online.... to do research. To collect stuff, information, blabla bla... of course it would not be free.. there should be some fee. So the money goes to the Mosque!!! Up to the mosque how to use it. Maybe for tarbiah activity done in the mosque. Outreach activity!! Whatever!!!

9.But how to forward this idea?

10. Who am I supposed to tell to get this idea executed?

11. Will it be accepted?

12. Oh... just how do I go about to forward this idea?

13. SUddenly an ustaz... from JAHEINS, Pejabat Daerah Ranau came approaching from nowhere!!

14. OK... to myself I said, "I'll start from him... maybe he knows the answer! Maybe he will listen!"

GRADUATION

2009-10-10T15:38:00.000-07:00

Convocation.
Main thing on mind now.
Inviting many tasks at school.
Sheets of exercise and excell paper to be prepared for instance.
Once done, fly with a wide, wide, wide smile.
A graduate finally.
In black and white.
So pat me on the back!

Satu Segala Macam Refleksi

2009-09-28T16:43:00.002-07:00

26/09/09 (Sabtu?)

'Semarak Islami Shahru Ramadhan'

Satu Segala Refleksi

Tidaklah Bermacam-macam pun macam dicanang tajuk

1. Syukur selesai.
2. Terima kasih ya Allah. Semua kerana Engkau.
3. Tidak lupa komitmen Ustaz, Ijah, Raman Syah the Great, pelajar SMK Ulu Sugut Boleh yang terlibat secara langsung. Cg. Jaafar, Cg. Sofian aka Umbu.
4. Pengetua tentu sekali, Cg. Jamirin.
5. Pelajar tidak langsung dilupakan.
6. Terima kasih, terima kasih.
7. Banyak yang saya pelajari dari program ini. Dari semua yang terlibat. Secara langusng. Tidak langsung. Nah siapa bilang belajar terpasung hanya pada satu cara?
8. Pertama, bagaimana berurusan dengan bos no. 1 saya.
9. Kedua, bagaimana berurusan dan bekerja dengan colleague.
10. Ketiga, bagaimana bekerja dan mengurus pelajar saya.
11. Keempat, sentiasa melunaskan hutang dengan Allah - dipermudahkan segala urusan, bak kata Rabiatul Adawiyah Lamsil (nah Abeq... aku seru namamu di alam maya), "Ingatlah Allah barulah dibalas dengan ingatan-Nya juga."
12. Kelima, yang terakhir setakat ini terfikir, melihat lubang-lubang program untuk diperbaiki bagi masa mendatang. Adalah tentu pasti ada. Tidak perlu diperturunkanlah. Rekod lain.
13. Ilham untuk menganjurkan program ini datang pada akhir minit.
14. 2 hari sebelum Ramadhan.
15. Waktu itu saya bercuti hujung minggu di rumah. Di Paka Dua.
16. Ilham baik yang datang dari Allah.
17. Selanjutnya mungkin saja pengaruh minat dari sekolah lagi mengadakan pengisian. Untuk sendiri. Orang lain. Semua.
18. Sedikit sebab supaya tidaklah saya lesu bosan kaku mengajar ala-ala formal di kelas saja. Alangkah boring!!!
19. Lihat dari sudut pandang pelajar, alangkah bosah kalau tiada pengisian tidak formal juga.
20. Setidak-tidaknya ada program seumpama, sebuah kenangan akan tercipta.
21. Satu masa bila toleh ke belakang. Putar semula pita otak, kenangan manis persekolahan dapat dicerita pada anak cucu. Gosip bersama tambalut memang sudah pastilah. Seronok itu!!! Aramaiiii ti.
22. Lagi saya percaya program seumpama mampu memacu pelajar untuk belajar. Belajar di kelas. Belajar di rumah. Di mana-mana.
23. Tidak lupa bersaing sesama sendiri. Walau kecil peringkatnya. Terbatas pada lingkup SMK Ulu Sugut sahaja. Logik juga dikata cubaan untuk ke arah menyediakan pelajar bersaing di peringkat tinggi - dengan pelajar sekolah lain di ranau.
24.Bak kata Jebat dan Bugi membawa arus budaya ilmu begitulah antara cara.
25.Bagaimana itu? Fikir.
26. Ramadhan telah pergi.
27. Sekarang Syawal. Salam Aidilfitri Salam Kemenangan semua sahabat dan taulan.
28. Musimnya berpuasa wajib akan tiba lagi.
29. Mudah-mudahan diberi kekuatan/ kesempatan selalu untuk memanfaatkannya.
30. Untuk diri sendiri.
31. Untuk semua.

P.E.D.U.L.I.

2009-09-25T04:37:00.000-07:00

Peduli!!
Dia peduli,
Hidupnya untuk peduli,
Sampai kepalanya pusing-pusing sudah.
Kerana peduli,
Dia tidak peduli itu,
Dia peduli hanya pada
kasih pedulinya yang satu,
yang meroket-roket,
sampai Firdausi!!!

Sayang...
Kasih peduli
wangian Firdausi itu
dibawa ke Jahannam.
Buatan dia
yang tidak peduli.
Dia itu peduli apa pada yang peduli?
Dia pedulikan dirinya cuma.
Peduli yang baunya busuk,
membusukkan,
merosak wangi
peduli Firdausi.

Dia yang peduli,
selalu peduli,
membingkis doa,
'rahmatilah peduliku ini Allah yang Maha Peduli'.

Tundukkan tidak peduli dia.
Ini doaku,
yang pedulinya,
separa-separa,
pandai pupus,
datang semula,
meroket-roket,
tiada ketentuan.

-Bersepah-sepah Tahi-

2009-09-21T20:03:00.000-07:00

Berak macam orang buta
Tahi bersepah-sepah
Jauh dari lubang sasar
Macam orang buta?

Marahlah orang buta
diibarat begini rupa.
Orang buta lagilah berak
Masuk tepat sasaran
Macam si bintang lucah Sniper Edison Chen!!!
Walhal si buta tidak nampak apa.
Alahai kesian si kacak bintang Sniper!!!

Tahinya bersepah-sepah
Orangnya tidak pakai otak
Tahunya membuang saja
sampailah zero perut,
Biar busuk keluar merata-rata
Macam kambing kampong berak di jalanan.

Otaknya mereng, memang mereng!!!
Kalah engkau hai si Condong Pisa!!!
Lebih baik ranap terus!!!
Orang lain tiadalah susah!!!

Terus...
biarlah dia membusuk 6 kaki di bawah sana
bertanding dengan tahinya yang lagi busuk!!

Tapi kuasa siapalah?
Mahu menghukum gilotin di leher orang...
Samalah bagai memandai menentu syurga milik siapa
MANA BOLEH!!!
DIA saja yang BOLEH!!!

(Cetusan ilham melihat tahi bersepah merata-rata di mana-manalah!!!)

- Koleksi bodoh-bodoh -

L.A.W.

2009-08-20T07:00:00.000-07:00

Still in US. Tomorrow would be going back home. Saturday is the first fasting day!! Ahlan-ahlan ya Ramadhan.

I am browsing the net now, to be precise http://www.dailyexpress.com.my/news.cfm?NewsID=67136
the heading I'm ready to be caned, says beer-drinking model.... really got my attention. So clicked on it I did. Full story was as followed:

Kuala Lumpur: A Muslim model sentenced to six strokes of the cane for drinking beer said she is willing to receive the punishment after the Sharia High Court in Pahang on Tuesday issued a warrant for her arrest.

She would be the first woman in Malaysia to be caned under Islamic law, her lawyer said Wednesday.

Kartika Sari Dewi Shukarno, 32, was sentenced to a caning and a fine of RM5,000 last month after she pleaded guilty to drinking alcohol at a hotel nightclub in Pahang last year.

The Malaysian mother of two, who lives in Singapore, said:

"I received a message from my dad yesterday. So I came back to Perak (from Singapore). I accept the punishment. I am not afraid because I was ready to be punished from Day One. They (authorities) hope to use my case as a way to educate the Muslims. So go ahead. I want to move on with my life.

"I am not worried at all nor do I want to avoid the punishment because I accept the punishment."

Kartika's lawyer, Mohamad Zuki Che Muhamad Ghani, said his client would be jailed on August 24 for one week before the caning.

"The warrant of arrest was issued to facilitate the caning," he said.

"She has to be jailed first and undergo health check-up to determine whether she is fit to be caned. She will be the first woman in the country to be caned under the religious laws," Mohamad added.

Kartika's father, Shukarno Mutalib, said that the family accepted the court's decision. "We are not feeling sad. We are Muslims and I agree she has to be caned. She has already pleaded guilty. We will follow the rules," Shukarno said.

Mohamad said Kartika had lived in Singapore for 15 years after marrying a citizen of the city state.

Malaysia, which has large Chinese and Indian minorities, has a dual-tracked legal system. Sharia courts can try Muslims for religious offences.

I said... heck wasn't this the woman who appeared in NTV7 morning talkshow like 3 weeks ago? With the ex-TV3 celebrity as the host? Alongside her, her father too was in the show!!!

Hmmm... Malaysia can people already under the sharia law?

Mata-mata Berahi! AWAS!!

2009-08-19T00:51:00.000-07:00

1. Benci juga rasa bila line wireless ni sot!!! Mau baca berita online tidak dapat. Mau upload dari youtube, semua harapan punah. Punah!!! Wireless US tolonglah.... tolonglah dapat!!

2. Saya berharap sangatlah surat khabar ada di sini!!! Mau baca online, berjanggut saya menunggu selalunya dengan rasa hampa!!!

3. Kasihan di US ni surat khabar tiada dilanggan!!!! Will have to do something about it!!! Propose it to Mr. No. 1 in school. Pity the students.... mungkin banyak yang mahu membacanya tapi sumber tiada!!! Alangkah-alangkah.... (SIGH)

4. Kali terakhir pos saya... saya cerita banyak benda yang mengesankan diri saya di US. Dan konon saya akan muat turun gambar di US. (Alah gambar tu lain kali lah....)

5. Salah satu yang mengesankan saya yang no. 3 itulah. Di sini tiada surat khabar. Maksud saya pusat sumbernya tiada surat khabar. Alangkah.....

6. (Sigh)... satu yang lebih-lebih mengesankan. Air untuk mandi tidak mencukupi untuk pelajar di sini. (Baca: AIR TIDAK MENCUKUPI UNTUK MANDI!!!) Adui.... alangkah!!! Jadi mandi macam mana pelajar ni???? Nasiblah ada sungai Sugut yang lebarlah juga!!!! Dan indah satu hal lain!!!

7. 'Pelajar asrama mandi di sungai' bukan benda baru sebenarnya bagi saya. Dari bestie saya DYNNA saya tahu di SMK Matupang juga pelajarnya mandi di sungai. Tapi 'tahu' sahaja tidak pernah 'menyaksikan dengan mata kepala sendiri' secara live suatu perkara pengalaman yang berbeda.

8. Jadi di US, dapatlah saya secara live menyaksikan!!!! Sungguh sebuah pengalaman!!! Dan otak saya tiada segan silu (buat apa malu-malu babi?) memikirkan beberapa benda.

9. Saya berfikir semasa melihat sendiri pelajar-pelajar ini mandi-manda di sungai.... betapa bahaya itu tiada bau. Dia boleh datang tanpa amaran.

10. Maksud? Eih macam-macamlah saya terfikir.

11. Seperti, budak boleh hanyut lemas di sungai!!!! OK... barangkali boleh bah orang lain cakap, "Relax bah kau Jon... terrer bah budak-budak itu berenang!!! Yalah.. membesar di sini kan. Suasana kampung." Mungkin... WHATEV!!!

11. Lain-lain saya juga dirangsang oleh cakap guru lain, "Tercemar bah mungkin air sungai itu. Ladang kelapa sawit di atas sana. Entah apa-apalah kena dump masuk sungai. Racun perosak kali!!! Nanti tinggal kenanganlah tu sungai tu!! Bye-bye gaman udang, ikan besar....." Saya terbayang fikir sesuatu yang berkaitan pelajar yang mandi di sana. Alalala.... kalau macam tu, kesannya ada jugakla pada kulit pelajar yang mandi!!!!

12. Jadi air yang kami guna untuk masak itupun dari sungai juga!!!!!!!! OMG!!!! SOS!!!!!!!

13. Tapi ini adalah benda yang paling mencucuk-cucuk fikir saya... pelajar perempuan mandi berkemban ala-ala Sofea Jane entah dalam muvi apa ntah di sungai. Saya merasa risau untuk mereka.

14. Untuk membayangkan saya masih dalam alam sekolah menengah dan mandi begitu terbuka... kadang-kadang orang kampung lalu-lalang. Saya naik RISAU!!!! Risau kalau-kalau ada mata-mata berahi di mana-mana!!! Yang takut-takut tergiur. Tersimpang. Menyerang??? Imaginasi liarkah???

15. Malang tiada baunya!!!! Wangi lagilah tarak!!!! Melampaukah saya berfikir sampai begitu sekali??? Tiada siapa boleh mengagak bah benda-benda buruk ni!!! Minta dijauhkan sahajalah.

16. Perbualan dengan Cikgu Janri lagi.... kami sama-sama sependapat, "Kasihan pelajar itu. Peergi balik mandi petang-petang itu sudah 1 km (500m pergi, 500m juga balik). Sudah makan masa banyak. Berpeluh pun sudah!!! Saya bilang sama kakak saya, "Patut pun sini pelajar fit-fit!!! Cukup aktiviti fizikal!!! Tidak payah bersenam... pergi balik sungai sudah cukup!!!

17. Pada saya, masalah tiada air dibekalkan secara cukup ni mengesankan. Ini kemudahan fizikal asas yang pihak berkuasa patut sediakan. Di mana-mana. Masalah masalah nagara..... kesayanganku!!!!

18. Kalaulah ada anak orang yang kunun 'somebody' di sini mahukah mereka membiarkan anak perawan mereka atau saudara perempuan mereka mandi begitu? Bila sudah malang datang membusuk barukah tindakan A.S.A.P. akan diambil??? Aduiiii.... tapi, ceh... impossible la anak 'somebody' mo sikul sini!!!

19. Bah... mau saya upload gambar untuk ditatap mata-mata berahi???? Ala-ala Sofea Jane mandi dalam muvi ntah apa!!!! Better yet come to US and experience it before your eyes and biar diri mu terkesan!!!! Just 2 hours to 2.5 hours drive from Ranau town. But berseia untuk menempuhi 11 jambatan dan jalan tiada tar dan berbatu-batu!!! Bontotmu bisa sengal-sengal tanpa perlu pekena goyang Inul yang....

20. AWAS... malang tiada bau!!!

Hatiku di US....

2009-08-01T08:14:00.000-07:00

1. US nama glamour diberi ramai guru-guru SMK Ulu Sugud Ranau pada sekolah pertama saya diposting ni.

2. "Sejak balik dari US malar batuk saya!!!" Saya cuba-cuba seloroh dengan kawan.

3. "Aik... kau pegi US meh?" sms kawan saya.

4. "SMK Ulu Sugud bebeh!!!" saya balas balik. "Hantu kau.... wrtsjslpfnmf..." kena saya!!! Aduh tidak sakit!!!

5. Sampai sekarang saya masih sakit. Batuk-batuk. Demam tiadalah pula. Selesma sikit-sikit.

6. Maaflah kawan-kawan... Ada saya ambil gambar di US. Banyak. Cuma connection wireless lidut buat saya malas mengupload!!!

7. Tapi sememangnya, the nature in US memang best. Kalau saja saya professional snap gambar ala-ala erm... Aizat boleh saya pinjam namamu?? Bah peminat nature... jemput datang ke US...

8. OKla til connection mengizinkan, sekarang saya masih batuk-batuk..... uhuk-uhuk... H1N1 minta dijauhkan!!! Amen!!!

9. Hatiku kuat di US.... banyak yang mengesankan di hati di US ni. Nantilah cerita... uhuk-uhukkksss.... ubat mana obat!!!

BABI RIANG GUMBIRA BERSIAR-SIAR

2009-07-14T05:42:00.000-07:00

1. Ya saya sudah tau sekolah tempat saya mengajar. SMK Ulu Sugud Ranau. Dalam daerah kesayangan saya sendiri. Tapi... saya pun tidak pernah sampai ke sana.

2.Sehinggalah... hari ini. Tujuan: melapor diri. Mama, makcik dan abang yang hantar.

3. Sekolah tu sebenarnya jauh!!! 2 - 2.5 jam perjalanan dari rumah saya. Jalan raya NADA tar. Line henpon tidak kira DIGI yang gah dengan orang belon kuningnya, CELCOM atau MAXIS semua tarak. Dan tadi, merah saya merasakan panasnya tempat itu ala-ala Shah Alam erk silap.. Shah Alam lagilah HOT! Dalam hati saya separuh meraung, "Kenapa Ewan yang dapat SMK Kundasang yang sejuk semulajadi?" Sob sob sob.

4. Penolong kanan yang peramah dan banyak betul kata-kata perangsang lahir dari mulut menyambut cakap saya ("Buat apa jadi cikgu kalau tidak 'mahu' datang di pedalaman?"), "Itu yang saya mau dengar!!" Saya rasa mahu tepuk dahi. Dalam hati berkata, "Bersemangat juga aku ni!!"

5. Kakak saya juga mengajar di sekolah ini. Kami bakal tinggal bersama. Ewan cakap, "Baguslah ko ada kawan juga." Ya syukur.

6. Dalam kepala sekarang berulang-ulang, "Buat apa jadi cikgu kalau tidak 'mahu' datang di pedalaman?". Bagus jangan jadi cikgulah kalau tidak mau datang. Ya sebelum posting lagi, sudah saya bersedia kalau-kalau diposting jauh jauh nun jauh. Tapi sebenarnya tempat saya posting ini sudah cukup baik daripada dihantar ke pulau yang jalan pengangkutannya lagi-lagilah penuh mencabar debar.

7. Semasa perjalanan ke sekolah, dari dalam Ford saya ternampak banyak babi hitam sekeluarga riang gumbira aman berjalan-jalan di kampung. Berbaris berbondong-bondong tertib si anak-anak kecil di belakang ibu yang tambun.

8. Perjalanan pulang dari sekolah saya (ya rasmi sudah SMK Ulu Sugud Ranau sekolahku), pemandangan babi riang gumbira aman berjalan-jalan di kampung saya kecapi lagi.

9. Khayal saya, saya mesti buat macam babi tu. Relax steady saja. Ada manusia pun tidak takut. Jangan jadi babi betul sudahlah.

10. Ahad ni datang semula ke sekolah, saya mesti bawa my Miss Cammie ke SMK Ulu Sugud. Babi hitam yang penuh inspirasi itu harus saya klik gambarnya dan diupload ke blog!!!

PLEASELAH, SABAH MASUK MALAYSIA???

2009-07-11T08:17:00.001-07:00

Lama sudah berlalu kursus Biro Tatanegara (BTN) yang saya ikut. Sebenarnya saya mahu menulis sesuatu yang saya tidak suka semasa BTN. Malas menghambat, alihnya sekarang baru menulis.

Keseluruhannya, saya suka BTN tu. I have no harsh judgment whatsoever about BTN. Despite of the so many reviews about it that I heard and read, I refused to be affected. Afterall, it would not do any justice given the fact that I never undergo BTN. OK actually I had once. BTN mahasiswa. But I was so detached from it (I slept a lot during talks) that I hardly know what it was all about I had nothing to realy reflect on except "OMG... I dozed off again!".

One of the remarks about BTN that I got came from my friend who openly admitted his political ideology is 'pro pembangkang' was, "Ceh satu lagi alat politik kerajaan BN. Bolehlah orang-orang BTN tu tolong mengukuhkan kedudukan politik kerajaan sedia ada!"

Saya jawab padanya, "Bah alang-alang bah takkan dorang mau buat cincai-cincai tu dasar. Mesti dorang mahu buat dasar yang menguntungkan dorang secara politik! Kan?"

"Uina... ko berhujah untuk BN??" balas kawan saya.

"Nolah baboon!!!" Kawan saya tu kadang-kadang sangat jahat. Dia memang suka menyerang kawan-kawan dia.

"Yes you did!!!" He insisted with a smirk. Seriously I felt like attacking him with a slap across his so animated face. Why did he has to do it all time?

"You know I did not. I was drawing the bigger picture here OK. Whoever is in reign in the political arena of a nation, then they really have the advantage to strengthen their position at all time!!! Nah kalau non-gomen sekarang yang mempunyai kuasa politik negara, dorang pun bah begitu!!! How? Buat dasar-dasar tertentu!!!"

"OK... don't be emotional." another attack!! "I know you are a good drawer. You know what, one dasar yang boleh merugikan kuasa politik kerajaan BN ialah PPSMI... blablablabla...."

Bagi saya, ada betulnya remark kawan saya itu mengenai BTN. Dan apa yang saya cakap selepas remark dia yang sinis menyimpulkan remark dia tu.

Apa-apa pun spekulasi yang berkaitan dengan soal politik ada pada BTN ni biarlah. Saya ketepikan. Sebab saya lebih melihat nilai patriotik yang cuba disampaikan oleh tenaga kursus BTN yang saya hadir. Aspek inilah yang saya suka!! Sangat suka!!! Saya menjadi lebih patriotik juga.

Tapi ada juga yang saya sangat-sangat tidak suka berlaku semasa BTN. Sesuatu yang keluar dari individu yang menggerakkan kursus itu. Mungkin dia ignorant bah perihal yang dia perkatakan. Tapi... what the heck...

Individu itu telah berkata begini sewaktu sessinya sedang berjalan, "Sabah masuk Malaysia pada sekian sekian sekian..."

Huh!!! Sabah masuk Malaysia??? Saya meradang. Sabah masuk Malaysia? Hohoho... adakah dia ni buat studi sebelum cakap? Sabah tidak masuk Malaysia. Sabah bersama Sarawak dan Tanah Melayu bergabung untuk membentuk Malaysia! Mana ada Malaysia sebelum 3 entiti ini bergabung secara murni atas hasil usaha pemimpin-pemimpin kita dahulu. So, to say sabah masuk Malysia was absurd!!!
Sabah masuk Malaysia? Lawak betul orang ni.

Bukanlah saya emosi (erk emosi juga lah, haha), tapi benda yang nampak macam kecil begini bagi sesetengah orang Malaysia yang peka sejarah (cewah, kunun sya ni pekalah!!:P) boleh menyentak sensitiviti.

janganlah cakap sabah masuk Malaysia lagi.... apalagi bagi orang-orang yang handle kursus macam BTN ni. Mahu memupuk perpaduan dan kebaikan, tapi kalau cakap benda yang berlawan dengan fakta boleh menyebabkan marah orang-orang tertentu. Kalau ada marah macam mana mau berpadu? Erk ada kaitan kah ni?? Mungkin ada dalam contoh yang bercakap itu rakan Malaysia yang berasal dari Semenanjung Malaysia. Boleh marah orang Sabah. Mungkin orang sabah akan fikir, "Aikkk... tidak belajar sejarah pembentukan Malaysia kah dia ni? Ohoooo.... dia anggap Sabah ni apa?? benci aku orang semenanjung ni"

Mungkin sahajalah...

KAMU SELALU DI HATI!!!!

2009-06-25T05:55:00.001-07:00

1. Saya suka gambar ni. Bergambar ramai-ramai hari terakhir BTN di daerah kesayangan saya Ranau. Dapat dari Yan. Yan dapat dari Aedy. Lihat muka-muka kami. Hensem, cantik, ceria.... kan?

2. Dan, lihatlah juga bah warna baju kami. Terang jelas 'HITAM PUTIH'.

3. Dulu-dulu kalau tulis karangan, saya sangat suka meggunakan 'hitam puith' sebagai kata adjektif bagi kenangan atau nostalgia. Contoh: 'Hitam putih kenangan bagaikan tayangan filem lama menerjah ke benakku'.

4. Tapi... untuk kenangan bersama-sama semua kawan-kawan Cohort II saya tidak mahu gunakan adjektif ini!!!!

5. Kerna kawan-kawan... nostalgia bersama kamu warnanya akan selalu berwarna-warni, segar... terang sentiasa!!!

6. Kawan-kawan semua... ucapan selamat saya berikan untuk transisi kita semua ke alam pekerjaan. Mudah-mudahan semua dipermudahkan Tuhan dalam dunia baru itu. Dan mudah-mudahan jalinan persahabatan kita akan selalu utuh!!!

7. Kenangan kita bersama biar warnanya selalu terang macam wajah-wajah ceria kita dalam gambar di atas.

8. Sayang kamu semua!!! Muah.... dan maafkan salah silap saya ya sama kamu!!! (^_^)

9. Manalah tahu masa saya menghilai tahi telinga kamu cair dan kamu geram gila sama saya. :P

KAHWIN!!!!

2009-06-05T20:22:00.000-07:00

1. Kawan-kawan tanya... "Bah bila kau kawinn?'

2. Macam-macam ada jawapan saya bagi.

3. Bergantunglah sama jantina yang bertanya, betapa rapatnya/ mesra/ tahap bergurau senda diorang dengan saya ni.

4. Antara jawapan saya kan, "Saya tunggu kau.... (sengaja berhenti sekejap) kahwin dulu!" Ini nakal.

"Relax bah palan-palan!" Ni jawapan kebosanan dengan soalan.

"Ai... kita sama-sama kahwin lah!" Ni bernakal-nakal juga.

"Aish muda lagi bah! Enjoy dulu." Reaksi bodoh-bodoh.

"Mau kumpul duit dulu. Ingat lelaki punya tanggungjawab saja keluar duit? Sama saja dengan perempuan. Kesian lelaki kalau kepau duit dia saja. Yalah mau beli katil, tilam, baju pengantin... bla bla bla... We need bucks!!" Bolehlah dianggap serius ni.

"Bah marilah bah kita kahwin jum!" Gila.

Jawapan yang saya paling suka, "Tunggu jak kad kahwin dari saya arrr! Time tulah tu saya kahwin... tarikh dalam tu kad!" Memang menjawab soalan ni!!

5. Sekarang cuti sekolah. Ramai yang mengadakan walimah urus. Classmate TESL sy ada 5 orang saudara-saudara mereka yang berkahwin.

6. Bekas ahli bilik saya d SMK (A) Ranau juga mendirikan rumahtangga hari ini. Sayang saya tidak dapat hadir.

7. Selamat mendirikan rumahtangga semua. ESpecially you Rinawati Yusah!! (^_^)

8. Di usia ini tidak dinafikan peranan dan tanggungjawab lagi perkara-perkara yang difikirkan banyak sungguh perubahan dan penambahan.

9. Saya sendiri banyak perencanaan di dalam otak mahu buat nanti.

10. Kahwin bila? Saya pun suka tanya kawan-kawan soalan ini. Perkara kahwin ni nampaknya salah satu perkara yang singgah-singgah di fikiran juga. Macam saya juga ramai kawan bagi jawapan lebih kurang sama dengan jawapan saya di atas.

11. Apa-apapun tunggu, sabar... steady!!!! Kahwin ni penting tapi jangan terlalu dipentingkan sangat kalau ada perkara penting belum selesai. Seperti apa? Duit (Kestabilan ekonomi)... calon... masih diusahakan. Nah berapa orang fikir seperti saya?

12. Rinawati Yusah my dear friend... selamat mendirikan rumahtangga!! Berakhirnya status lama... bermulanya status baru, tanggungjawab baru. Saya doakan kebahagiaan sentiasa menyelubungi. (^_^)

THINGS MALAYSIANS DO BEST???

2009-05-30T23:55:00.001-07:00

(Sigh)
few more days left before KISSM starts!!!
Kursus cikgu2!!! in maktab...
2 weeks... phew.. that's long...
i am left with no choice...
but to go...
compulsory!!!

Or else...
(Sigh)
tidak boleh jadi cikgu wooo...
all those 6 years of my TESL study will go down in the drain!!!
wait till betul2 sudah jadi cikgu...
bet there will be many course to attend too!!!!
(sigh)
better get use to it now or never...
call it part of professional development!!!
lifelong one!!!

(Sigh)
my kitten 'Puith' keeps on peeing and pooing in front of my brother's room.
I have to clean the mess over and over...

(SIgh)
I still have not start my guitar lesson yet!!!
there are so many other things delaying me so..

(Sigh)
my teeth needs a new filling...
Oh God Oh Help another visit to the dentist!!!

(Sigh)
Now how many sigh already I've made??

Sigh... sigh... sigh...
just one of the things I do best...
sighing sighing I always find myself doing, I damn make sure I do the follow up action needed!!!

I've been reading Lee Su Kim's book 'a Nyonya in Texas'....

came across with her remark saying

'EATING - one of the things that we Malaysian do best....'

hehe... I guess yeah indeed it is!!!
it sure does apply to me!!!
not a bad thing at all as long as what is eaten is all good stuff!!!

(Sigh)
Here I go sighing again!!!
My beties' mother said i'm getting bigger..
huhuhu...
uh oh... i guess i've been eating a lot these days... and no exercise at all...
sob, sob...

(Sigh)
How I never go out exercise since I got home in Ranau like 3 weeks ago...

Now I hope how:
'EXERCISING - one of the things I will do best too... consistently i hope...'
walk side by side with two of the things I do best in my life - SIGHING & EATING...

SIGH...
just pic showing me at the thing I do best (GRIN)

and as Lee Su Kim wrote in her book 'A Nyonya in Texas' - Malaysians do best!!! A must read ni!!!

Crispus said jangan lupa Malaysians juga suka KEPOH!!!!
(Hmmm)

Mansau-ansau Part II

2009-05-20T03:12:00.000-07:00

Fancy soaking your feet in cool refreshing water??? Friendly fishes swim around your feet... unafraid... pecking on and rubbing against your skin... some gently some roughly.... mostly the feeling... ticklish!!!

On Monday this week I went mansau-ansau to Kg. Luanti, in Ranau of course. Less than 10 minutes drive from my house. Went there coz my mother got a special intensive scheme from Jabatan Perikanan. 10 000 anak-anak ikan she would be getting!!! Majlis perasmian intensif anak-anak ikan untuk pengusaha kolam ikan air tawar dibuat di kampung ini.

And such a cool experience as described above I had there!!! having my feet in the clear steer unpolluted river, I could see fishes dancing and dancing and dancing gracefully around me!!!

Actually back in the good old high school days, I had mansau-ansau here thrice. School activity. BBQ, camping, mandi-manda di sungai hooray-hooray.... outdoor thingy...

Those days this place was not as beautiful, as well cared and conserved as it is today!!!

What a transformation it has now. Long ago, lalang-lalang tinggi merajai padang kampung ini. Sungainya ditagal tapi ikan-ikan tidak kenampakan seperti sekarang.

But now.... Subhanallah.. this place is smashing!!! It is very, very well cared now. And the result??? Kg. Luanti must have gained such profit from this project. Projek ikan sungai tagal turn to be Ranau tourist destination. Brilliant!!! Bravo Kg. Luanti!!!

A rather irritating, infuriating thing took place when my sis, aunt and me lepak2 with the tourist guide there.

A guy who happened to be the chauffeur to the Deputy Minister for Kementerian Pertanian dan Industri Makanan who came to the village to launch the special scheme, threw his unfinished cigarette on the ground, in front of our eyes. In front of everyone in the scene. Still burning and smoking there it laid on the ground - oh I so hate such manner!!! The guide who lepak2 with us took the cigarette - matikan baranya - and threw it in its right place - the dustbin.

Harap2 lelaki pemandu itu bakal mempunyai kesedaran sivik masa mendatang!!! Sungguh tiada adab gayanya!!!

If you are coming to Ranau, put Kg. Luanti on top of the list to be visited!!! Not expensive to get admission. Orang Ranau only RM3, other district I think RM3 also... tourist RM15!!!

And you can choose packages such as bathing in the river and get the fishes peck you, feed the fish and have your hand being sucked at while feeding them, and others I forgot already!! All at different rate but worth it!!!Oh and yeah the guide claimed that being pecked and sucked by the fish while bathing in the river has health benefits such as 'buang angin' from the body!!!

Overall for me the visit was great. Mainly because we got free admission to the place. Thanx abang and pakcik guard.. ponsikou togumu kio!!! Huahuahua.. Mansau-ansau kita!!!! Enjoy the nature... Littering don't ever do it anywehere anytime...

message from mother nature!!!!

hoorayyyy....

Mansau-ansau

2009-05-19T21:32:00.000-07:00

Yeah jobless but not searching for job. But I want work to do. So, today I mansau-ansau around my village. My Mp3 sang out loud 'hey mansau-ansau oku.. au katama muli!!!!' i don't know who the Kadus singer was... one thing for sure the song is my all time kadus song fav!!! i grew up with it...

I didn't mansau-ansau for no apparent reason!!! I went to Arip's house. He wasn't home. So I talked only to his mom and his adopted brother. I badly wanted this one type of lemon grass!!! Serai wangi the name in Bahasa. To have it planted at the back of our house. And yahooo managed to get it I did!!!

I gave Arip one of my 3 white kittens last year in December. Neno his name is. He's big alreay!!! And cuter!!!!

The whole household loves him early. ARip's adopted bro said Neno sleeps with him at night!!!

Oh, Neno I'm just glad kau menjadi kesayangan semua di rumah barumu!!!

I walked home from Arip's place.... I couldn't resist taking this goat's picture taking a rest under a shady tree in my uncle's yard!!! She was like the longest living goat in my kampung!!! Been here since I was in primary school!!!!

I just love mansau-ansau like this!!!!

I hope the lemon grass will grow fast, many...

bolehlah mandi air serai wangi!!!

terus mansau-ansau lagi...

Crawling, Walking, Running!!!

2009-05-19T08:02:00.000-07:00

My friend cute Yan the first Cohort II to go blogging had this tag as her status in Yahoo Messenger - 'Jobless, but not looking (hunting) for job!'

Yeah that goes the same with me cute Yan... (^_^)

Job as a teacher is waiting for me (us)...

In fact I cannot wait till that very day comes this July for me to be posted... to be officially called a teacher.... (Just where the school will be? I'm so like the CAT nowadays. Curious!!! Curious... curious.... meow, meowww!!!)

(clearing my throat) Miss Askidah Tahir (drop the 'r', don't plz)...

Miss Kide'.

Wow awesome. Call me Miss Kide'!!!

Feel cool!!!

More cool is the fact that at this stage I would be moving into the next stage of life.

Level where one is heading toward financially independent state.

Working life that is!!!

Milking for money!!!!

Lately.... most conversations I had with my friends revolved around work - our new responsibilty - upon hitting that phase - working life konon!!! Boring? Hell no bah!!!

Moving toward financially independent.

Cool konon.

Not dependng on parents to provide for one anymore!!!!

My friend Gupier remarked a very good thing about this phase, "tanggungjawab kita lagi-lagi berubah sudah saat-saat ini. kita yang kena memberi pada mama bapa kita sudah sepatutnya!" (of course I changed a bit her ayat... but the isi is there!! hehe).

True indeed Gupier.

Jobless but not hunting for job!!!

That may apply for me and cute cute Yan.

For some....

No.

They are hunting, searching.

Hard for some.

For all my friends who are in search...

I pray that Allah Almighty will ease it for you guys!!!

PS: Life is synonymous to crawl - walk - run!!!!

Darling Which One Are You?

2009-05-03T16:38:00.000-07:00

Which one are you?
Better at talking?
Listening?
Both?
Bravo!

Or maybe you are just something else
Yet to be mentioned.

You great at keeping mum?
Outside of the ring.
Observing
everything.
Feeling!

So darling
Just which one are you?

4/5/2009
It was a good day hanging out with Ateq drinking Milo Ping!!!!

AKU CEMBURU.... MEMANG CEMBURU NURUL!!!

2009-04-17T05:21:00.000-07:00

Cemburu aku cemburu....

bukan suatu sifat terpuji....

mesti dielakkan...

melainkan yang dicemburui itu benda yang elok-elok molek sahaja...

oleh sebab benda ini elok-elok molek sahaja....

wajar aku cemburu...cemburu....

my bestie Nurul very energetic mama... you ignited the 'good' feeling first by sending me the e-mail "kide... pesta buku april ni jan jeles!!!!"

ya untuk kawan2 yang duduk KL.... KEHELkanlah kaki korang pergilah kepesta buku itu!!!!

besar harapan aku ni sebenarnya dapat membeli satu lagi buku baru Faisal Tehrani yang wow botak sudah kepala dia... baru tadi aku cubuk di blog dialah... mana lagi...

tajuk????

ketupat cinta...

yang gila-gila aku selalu tidak pernah rindu untuk baca setiap Selasa akhbar harian Metro di UiTM Shah Alam dulu-dulu!!!!

Bah gaman kamurang di KL.... pergi aramaiti di sana PWTC kio!!!!

Ada Segalanya

2009-04-11T00:02:00.000-07:00

Diam,
Sunyi,
Sepi,
Nikmatinya sungguh-sungguh.

Di sana
Ada segala damai...
Aman, selesa...
Mengisi hati.

Apa guna
Berkata-kata
Jika hujungnya
Di hati
Tiada hadirnya
Bahagia
Segala rasa?

Cuba
Rasai
Diam
Sunyi
Sepi.

Siapa tahu
ada segala di sana.

NILAM Bah... saya mau oh!!!

2009-04-03T15:26:00.000-07:00

adik saya menang NILAM.
Terbanglah dia bulan ni ke Tanah Melayu.
Bertanding peringkat nasional pula.
Doa saya dia akan menang lagi-lagi.
Bukan saya seorang berdoa.
Kakak-kakak dia.
Abang-abang dia.
Mama tentu-tentu sekali!!!

Ooooh Jebat terbang percuma lagi kau kali ni, kan???
Mudah-mudahan kembara ilmu yang akan datang tidak lama lagi ni akan beri pulangan paling berkesan!!!
Macam selalu-selalu!!!

(^_^)... Peluk saya...
eh saya peluk kau macam selalu arrr sebelum kau terbang!!!

Hehe..

ALLERGIC

2009-03-24T06:48:00.000-07:00

"Ko pi pki gincu org ka sampai bibir ko berkurap?? Mama cakap sebab ko kuat ketawa bah tu! Ko kasi ketawa orang kan...."

sms i got from my sis this afternoon. during lunch.

erk... gincu orang? no way!!! ok yeah i did sometimes. but this 'kurap' around my mouth was not cause of lipstick!!! but i swear after this i will never use other's lipstick nymore!!!

kuat ketawa?? kasi ketawa orang?? aduina... mak.. apa kaitan??? hehehe...

the real reason as far as i could recall... i've been eating lots of eggs before suddenly uninvited the itchiness attacked my lips... only lips... not 'kurap' bah... just allergic!!!

i thought it was only temporary so buat derk sajalah!!! afterall the itchiness was tolerable... so i did not ambil pusing sangat....

then came the worst part... i went out to KK strolled around town with my brother. we bought keropok double decker perisa udang.... i ate a lot!!! not long after, the skin around my mouth turn red... and goodness gracious ITCHY beyond description!!!! i have to hold back tendency to rub out of fear i might hurt my skin!!!

i never had this happened to me before. doctor stanley said yesterday is not the same as today!!! aiyoooo.... you might be allergic to some food now even if you did not before!!!

wanted to snapped a pic of the allergic to post here but thought better of it... no need lah... it looked ugly looking at it from near!!!

oh... what can i say... go go away itchy-itchy!!!!

(sigh) am still suffering!!!

POLITIC FOR A CUP OF HOT HONEY GREEN TEA???

2009-03-15T16:05:00.000-07:00

a friend asked me. "kide sapa politician yang ko minat oh?"

i answered her.

jokingly.

seriously actually...

laki-laki tiada yang hensem!!!!

perempuan suma basar mulut!!!

kalah mulut basar saya.

kalau saya lesbo kena bagi juta-juta ringgit mo minat dorang pun saya ndak mau!!!

no seriously...

i did answered her seriously. after a change of laughter between us. tears on our eyes.

POLITICIANS ARE NOT TO BE ADMIRED.

at least this applies to me.

THEY ARE EXPECTED TO BE SCRUTIIZED ALL THE TIME

THEIR POLICY ARE TO BE COMMENTED THOROUGHLY.

LARGELY...

THEY ARE SUPPOSED TO BE EXPECTED TO FULFILL THEIR BIG FAT SWEET TALK AKA PROMISE THEY HARBOURED ON TO GET VOTES FROM THE PEOPLE!!!

ideally i hope these whoever politicians know well why they are there.

like me i have the big fat list why i am in the teaching line.

they need to be shaked sometimes. like, "hello what are you guys doing? gomen and oppo!! we haven't seen much changes."

not so interested in politic actually but have to have some views and ambil tahu!!!

a cup of hot honey green tea is more appealing than politicians who don't know what are expected of them from the people who vote them... ok talk about vote... i need to go to the registrar...

V.V.I.P. That's me

2009-03-14T22:06:00.000-07:00

1. oh che det's blog thanx yazri link i got from you... the former PM wrote in this style... numbering everythg he wants to convey... ok..it is kind of OK

2. just got back from Nurul energetic Momma's blog... I just knew she wants to apply for dpli

3. she justified her reasons of joining the force

4. believe me... not only to friends you will have to tell the reasons

5. prepare to convince the interviewer darling

6. every semester... as i could recall, first day of class, we were always asked by the lecturers why... why you are in this course??? at one moment i was so sick of the question... i just give reason that as i look back now... tak payah cerita lah

7. not till toward the end of my studies did i refleceted thorougly the true significant of the question

8. surely it has a great impact for one's (teacher) proessional self development... i mean if i know why i am in this job... the reason i become a teacher... it will aid me to go through any pitfall of the job

9. i have many reasons actually....

10. one is... now after almost 6 years... i figure out i really want to be that VVIP!!!! moulding the younger generation to be desirable people... help them learn...

11. ya...

STATUE

2009-03-10T04:20:00.000-07:00

Never a day
ever passed
Without this emotion
So beautiful,
Sacred,
Crowned in my heart,
Carved for you.
Just you.

So I was Born in JUNE

2009-02-27T03:39:00.000-08:00

I stole this from my fwen azri's blog... i juz kind of like it... so i took it... many of the description fit!!!! bold is the original, the itallic come from me...

JUNE people:
Thinks far with vision.
can beat Dr. M yes!!!

Easily influenced by kindness.
Hati terusik???

Polite and soft-spoken.
woah.... yeah and the next door lecturer comes and knock softly asking the class to shhhhhhhh

Having lots of ideas.
thank god i'm still sane

Sensitive.
very

Active mind.
hopefully it will during forum on 6th march amen

Hesitating, tends to delay.
proof? my AE is still stuck at...

Choosy and always wants the best.
Shoot me at the head....

Temperamental.
no

Funny and humorous.
yeah.... friends say so

Loves to joke.
friends fay so... yalah kali

Good debating skills.
not as great as jebat & bugiey

Talkative.
hmmmmm

Daydreamer.
hehe

Friendly.
survival

Knows how to make friends.
you don't want enemy

Abiding.
well....

Able to show character.
but canpeople read?

Easily hurt.
and it is really hurting me

Prone to getting colds.
strange it's true!!!

Loves to dress up.
why who don't??? wish i have more bucks!!!

Easily bored.
yeah....

Fussy.
yeah but not to the extent of an irritating perfectionist

Seldom shows emotions.
true

Takes time to recover when hurt.
short time if it's temper

Brand conscious.
i don't care if it's made in Golok... you don't have much choice if u don't hv the money... huhuhuhu... for now

Executive.
kichik said i am

Stubborn.
oooooohhhhhh..... surely

I've Been Tag Yeah

2009-02-24T05:01:00.000-08:00
OK I'm a NKOTB... New Kid On The Blog!!! My sister leave me a comment P/s I tag you... so i went like hey what's the animal is that?

Rupanya... it is this... 6 random things spill I have to.

Rules:-
1. Link to the person who tagged you √
2. Post the rules in you blog.√
3. Write 6 random things about yourself.√
4. Tag 6 people to your post and link to them.√
5. Let each person know they've been tagged and leave a comment on their blog.√

So here go the 6 things:
1. I'm praying for someone now... really pray he'll made the interview!!!
2. I really really want to eat Burger King now with my sister Ijah!!!
3. I want to learn how to swim and then take diving license... hopefully with Abeq!!!
4. How I hope to collect all of my Faisal Tehrani's book with Kak Rozet by end of this month. I miss 'em!! (SIGH)
5. I hope I am cool during driving class coz my teacher Mr. Raju said he was soooo afraid to ride with me. How bad was I sir??? Lagi mau tanya.... duh.. (GRIN)
6. SLIMWORLD I want to enrol in you!!!! I don't want Herbal Life like Momoy or Syaz or ZZ want it... I want SLIMWORLD... (GRIN)...

Bah I have to nominate 6 people, so I nominate
1. Yantoxxx
2. Momoy
3. Bugiey Bugz
4. Shima
5. Andie Mujie
6. SYaz do you have a blog???? since mdm. Jenny Pang ask us to do....

P.U.T.U.S.

2009-02-18T16:52:00.000-08:00

Broke up. End of the great love story. The cut deep deep, bleeding. Yet invisible. Mark forever. Long time to get better. Some unheal. It's a sad thing yes.

I must admit I don't have enough credibility to talk much about love, broken heart, putus cinta in Bahasa Melayu, all those romance-stuff-related. Coz' I never really experience such things. Ask my friend Aden, he understand me well in this matter.

My peek into that world is through friends. Sharing with me their bits of the stuff. Second source would be observation. Standing outside of the ring, looking, seeing, feeling, learning from what I witness. The last channel definitely is through reading bookworm that I am as Arman said. Yeah I have a bunch of friends who call their friends names.

I could conclude this:-
Broke up.
End of the great love story.
The cut deep, bleeding. Yet invisible.
Mark forever.
Long time to get better.
Some people get bitter.
Some unheal.
So fix it!!!
You don't want to be sick all the time.

It is especially sad for me to listen to bits from friends who broke up with their special one who also happen to be in my circle of friends too. (Some of these exes are my friends though the first are on higher par than the latter).I got irritated to hear repeated stories all over again like there are no other stories. Like some people are Astro Channels. Once story-telling is the most cool. Friends want to share. To let out the bad aura in their grief-stricken heart. Twice is still OK. Thrice and so on and so on added with bits of badmouthing their exes is so not cool and OK. Can sniff something wrong in such situation.

Just what the heck is it for? For me it is like drawing a bad, bad picture about their exes. Painting a hideous colour for them. Like they are real bad, bad dog/ bitch. OK maybe they are. Thing is all of it make me deliberately think you are trying to make me stand in the same league with you. To be so against your exes just like you? We are friends, friends should stick togeteher I know, but your exes are also friends. To get things straight I made my view and stand cut and explicitly clear that the problem should only be between the two. Not me against their exes. Their exes are also my friends even though they are on the higher par.

It just that in life you can't afford to make enemy. What more if the problem got nothind to do with you. I so agree with Riz and Masnah when they said, "The past between two exes especially the hideous part should remain between the two!"

Masnah also agree with me, "By telling the story sure they spill their exes' weaknessess, the bad side. So we could see who the victim are. Who are in guilt. But actually they also reveal their own weaknesses."

And I couldn't agree more!!!

MOM'S L.O.V.E. IS A BLESSING

2009-02-17T20:40:00.000-08:00

I went to 1 Borneo yesterday. Last week just got the allowance scholarship. Had long planned to switch to another facial product. Bought new product to test yesterday. Hopefully could kiss bye-bye the glowing sunshine on my detereorating skin (SIGH). Great 'Body Shop' packed their product mainly using paper. Less use of plastic the so non degradable material. In some way I viewed it as a marketting strategy to attract customers who are into 'GREEN' to look at them in a positive light.

Done with my business in The Body Shop - i straight headed to Harris - the newly opened bookstore in 1 Borneo. Only planned to kill time by flipping over some of the books' title and pages from rack to rack. Actually so dying inside to buy 2 books by an Afghan author - i - forgot his name. But I registred very well his very first book's title - The Kite Runner. Nonetheless I'm afraid my budget was already tight this month. What more after purchasing the Body Shop products. (Hopefully it will do wonder to my skin prob. High Hope!!!) Got to wait till next allowance is bank in then.

The last rack i lingered at, my eyes caught Frank McCourt's book. I took it and flipped over several pages.I found myself hooked up reciting

Your mother's love is a blessing,

No matter where you go,

Keep her while you have her,

You'll miss her when she's gone.

well written in the Irish-American teacher's book. Splendid and beautiful. Made me pondered on how much so far my dedication of appreciation towards my mom!!!

The Ironic Preacher

2009-02-16T03:51:00.000-08:00
I learnt long ago never to let myself be surprised hearing that people who preach adamantly do just the things they are so against of in their preaching. Ironic isn't it - preaching against things but doing them? Life afterall is full of IRONY!!! Always prepare well for it then.

I'm actually trigger to write this after gossipping oooh!!! and ahhhh!!! with a bestie (baby your name i should make confidential)! We both know this one friend who talks about good deeds and bad. About sin and pahala. You should/ shouldn't do this and that. Heaven and hell, religion stuff and all. Get the picture I hope. It's good to have friend like this yeah.

Nonetheless it turns out that the preacher is not applying things preached... bla, bla, bla, bla...

Oooh yesss... we human are so capable of flaws (if one wants to say alah biasalah tu manusia bah!). So based on this also I'm now so incapable of avoiding myself from turning into deaf ears - switching off completely whenever the person goes on bla, bla, bla, bla, bla.... even politely tell the preacher so what I think. That's the best part!!!

And so there's an Arab proverb unzur ma kola wala tanzur man kola (look upon what is said, don't look at the person). Oh dear God... some things are not as easy as eating pancakes!!!

It's hard actually to take in what the ironic preacher bla, bla, bla, bla now knowing the ironic side.

deeper conversation

2009-02-15T00:28:00.000-08:00

have this conversation before we - masnah & me - fall deep into beautiful slumber. one can say it as gossipping too!!! gossip that fruits us good sharing of talk and discussion though. no harm done and no merit gained!!! hell i don't want to go to... so better be selective with what i am gossipping about.

one of our friends is now attempting to lost weight. ok i phrase it in other words... our friend is now embarking in a dare to lose thingy!!! parents said, "No one will fall for you nanti!"

i actually giggled at the saying "No one will fall for you nanti!"

oh... what a way to reason people to lose inches... what a classic way to persuade others... i had to agree though that it could be a strong motivation for one to shed kilos!!!! afterall... we are living in a world where we are excessively bombarded by the idea that small, slim... super skinny (yuck and that's so gory looking) is beauuu - oooo - ti - ful sexy attracting others like magnet. much much appetizing x-faxtor to shooo away the fat!!! so if you could be that many 'S'... one will fall for you... eh... not one.. many kut!!! kut!!!

but for me... losing kilos.... get trim and all shape... eh no, no , no... 'put it in my style... stay fit & healthy... dare to lose thingy' , the most effective motivation for me is...

i don't want to die cause by illnesses derived by fatness!!! dying cause by diseases related to being off the ideal body mass index - e.g. heart problem, diabetes, high cholestrol, etc. for me it shows that i am irresponsible towards myself (for example me myself if i suffer that illnesses). such things if pre-cautions are done well could definitely be prevented. if things still turn out bad after all of the efforts than that would be different!!! seriously everyone should be taking care of our body, food we take, our activity and exercise. be responsible towards our well being. and yeah i simply believe that God told us to be just so - responsible to our well being!!! i simply apply this. and alhamdulillah it's working for me. i am shrinking well. (hehehe) and i feel good having this x-factor behind my attempt!!!!

moral of the story one should have a very solid x-factor to shed all of those excess kg!!!
i hope my friend itu will succeed in the dare!!! hopefully when the effort shows great gain the parents could happily say, "nah... many fall for you already."

amen!!!

B.O.Y.C.O.T.T.

2009-02-03T04:59:00.000-08:00
i smsed my bestie Masnah last night. asking if she would be free this Wednesday. hopeful that we could catch a movie together. i had INKHEART in mind. but she'll not be free. nevermind i said, maybe some other time. date with you in coffee beans or starbucks some time when you are free ok masnah, said i.

it's better if we don't go to starbuck la kide. israel's brand. coffee bean la!!! a reply from her.

masnah will it really make a different if we boycott starbuck?

imagine millions of malaysian do not buy their product they the zionist will not get their royalty paid!!! we can't give hands for our brothers & sisters in Palestine... this is the least we could do. sure it will make a different!!!

right... let's boycott the zionist's product!!! this make me think... if i go watch the movie... does any royalty is paid to he zionist? i mean is the production behind the movie the belongs to them? if yes sure they will get!!!

bagus beli cetak rompak lah after this!!! hahaha...

G.R.E.E.N.

2009-01-31T17:16:00.000-08:00
now if we claim we love nature... we love the earth... we will not ever ever litter... everywhere... anywhere, anytime.

owh it maddens me so much to see people litter!!!

anywhere not just in big city like Kota Kinabalu the Otai Gomen should strictly implement the law that people who litter will get FINE. (i don't see it happen in my hometown). owh better if such people get all of these penalties:

FINE in the form of RM
lock them up in the cell
get them do cleaning job

all 3 of them!!!

actually we don't have to claim we love nature or the earth for us not to litter!!! i think if we love ourselves that's enough for us to be aware that we shouldn't litter. that's what i think. i mean think of it this simple way, litttering cause pollution. pollution will definitely harm our health. we love ourselves too much we absolutely don't wanna get ourselves harm.

but i guess to get people to be responsible to the mother nature, to stop littering which only lead to pollution can also be in many forms of steps!!! education is one thing...

Juta-juta Rasa

2009-01-29T19:17:00.000-08:00

Titis-titis hujan,
Gugur mengucup-ngucup bumi,
Ku lihat ke luar,
Hitam putih kenangan datang-mendatangi.
Pantas
Ria juta-juta menyerbu ke kalbu.
Ke luar rumah ku gegas,
Bagai kala anak-anak,
Tanpa sepatu
Menari-nari bersama sang hujan,
Bermesraan dengan manjanya becak tanah.
Ku dongak bersua langit,
Mata dikatup kejap-kejap,
Wajah dielus terus
memanik hujan
kian halus kini.
Oh alangkah...
nikmat Tuhan
menjemput juta-juta rasa
tidak akan
pernah
terkirakan.

Shake the Bellydance Baby!!!

2009-01-28T20:39:00.000-08:00

It has been a long time since I last strolled and strolled in any shopping mall. So when I got the chance last Saturday before Ranau here I come - balik kampung, I so grabbed it. It was not that I was overly excited about the whole thing. It just that I had long wanted to find this one particular CD. And I felt that KK price is far cheaper than Ranau. The whole matter is about being economical.

the cd shop in 1 Borneo no Surau ni sad shopping mall

The CD fall under this category:

ahah alas found.... here...

Abeq my bestie my 'Dare to Lose' bestie who is now far away in Tawau for her pracical actually had promised to lend me her CD but I couldn't wait till February. Better buy it myself. Add my 'Dare to Lose' CD collection. Well this is only my third. :P

Cost me only RM9.90!!! Now I could CD-teach myself the sexxxyyy dance. Phewww... but I still want Abeq to personally coach me. Oh yes.. she definitely could do the dance!!! RRRRR.... Abeq don't you break my heart by breaking your promise arrrr!!! RRRRR...

Rindu Juta-juta Pada...

2009-01-24T16:45:00.000-08:00

I unpacked all of my junks from Zeth's rental house. should have done it earlier... last year lagi patut but too damned lazy to do. this rice cooker

was among the thing I found. My very first rice cooker. A present from my late father. He bought it for me so I could cook throughout my practicum in SMK Lok Yuk. I rented in Zeth's house. Cut some budget by doing my own cooking.
Seeing the rice cooker brought back all of the memories. I was flooded with rindu juta-juta sama gemulah bapa saya.
I whispered my silent prayer for my beloved father.
"Tuhan yang maha penyayang maha pengampun maha mendengar doa hambaNya... cucuri rahmat ke atas roh bapa saya. Sayangi beliau. Jauhkan siksa yang tidak tertanggungkan. Tempatkan beliau di kalangan orang beriman."

last pic with my father
Selagi jasad bernyawa rindu juta-juta ini tidak akan ada akhirnya. Rindu juta-juta ini bersandar pada kenangan terus subur dizahirkan pada kiriman doa-doa. Mudah-mudahan Allah menerimanya.

E.X.P.O.S.E.D.: NAKED???? NAY!!!

2009-01-22T00:04:00.000-08:00

As said by Yan and Syaz.... go ahead just photoblog it!!! It's your blog bah!!! Can say anything can post anything... can anything anything anything.... well... sure not semberonoh lah. Siapa mahu upload gambar bogel??? Welll.... some do in their blog.

Not some porn pics.... the ladies in Gaya pics. But these pics do not really display the same scene I viewed the other day. Not as worse as what I had seen before. Or Yan had seen - well she saw tahi manusia!!!! Ntah sapalah tu tidak pandai flush!!! Talk about attitude!!!

See the tissue?? The bowl is sparkling clean... but the tissue left spoiled the look!!

Sotlah tisu bekas lap.... you know what!!!

See the orange water inside the poo hole??? Wah.. who want to tuang najis atas najis alien!!!

Yeah macam-macam tisu

Fuiyooo... tisu bekas lap you know what+ kencing = semerbak

The fact that such attitude really trouble others infuriated me!!! I mean there you are in the ladies you want to pee you want to get the tahi keluar but then such attitude leaving other things than their footsteps made you feel yuck yuck yuck to go in and get done with your business!!! Entahlah... For me this is attitude problem!!! The ibu-ibu cleaner had done their part cleaning but the trainee.... (SIGH).

THE WHOLE COLLEGE SHOULD KNOW THIS AND SAY "NDAK MAU" PADA HAL BEGINI!!! SERIOUSLY...

T.E.R.A.P. aka T.A.R.A.P.

2009-01-21T05:35:00.000-08:00

Yummy

Buah terap slang Sabahnya tarap
Manis rasanya mimang sadap;
Dimakan begitu saja alangkah sadap,
Dibuat kuih lagi-lagikan asadap.
Pantun bukan pemantun

Kalaulah adik saya Jebat baca pantun ini mungkin dia akan mengejek, "Eih... buruk juga ni pantun ni!" Dan mungkin saya akan balas tidaklah lancang pun, "Ah... shut up your big mouth!" Mungkin.
Entah kenapa saya tergerak mahu memasukkan entri pasal buah eksotik Sabah ini. Oh sebab tiada cerita lain sudah. Haha... Bukan apa-apa pun. Hari tu mansau-ansau sekitar kedai-kedai Indah Permai, singgah di tempat berjaja sayuran dan buahan di sebelah KFC. Mahu membeli buah kesukaan, betik ranum buat pelawas sembelit!!!
Ditakdirkan mata tertangkap alahai si buah tarap nan sebiji. "AIkkkk... masih pula ada tara!!! Musim sudah habis pun di Ranau." Tiada niat mahu membeli terus saya bertanya saja, "Makcik... makcik... berapalah harga itu tarap?" Makcik menjawab dengan suara perlahan saja... cuma hujungnya saya dengar, "Lima puluh sen." "Hah... berapa? 50 sen saja kah makcik?" Murahnya... wahh, saya mau beli mau beli!!! Hati betul-betul menyanyi merdu padahal tadi setakat mahu bertanya langsung bukan membeli.
"Eh, bukanlah. ENAM RINGGIT LIMA PULUH SEN sayang!" Oh Tuhan. My jaw dropped. "Atok-atok mahal oh makcik!!!" Tanpa malu-malu babi dengan kerutan juta-juta di dahi saya mengomen. Terus makcik taukeh pun berjela-jela memberitahu... "tarap itu bukan dari KK tapi diimport dari Kota Belud. Kos pengangkutan.. lagi-lagi bukan musim tarap. Kalaupun musim paaaaling murah RM2.50. Oklah makcik. Saya faham. Wah talk about te price of tarap. Di Ranau kalau musim, saya makan tidak payah bayar oh. Kalaupun mahu membeli di pasar saya boleh negosiasi sampai harganya jadi RM0.50.
Inflasi letaknya sungguh-sungguh pada semua barang sekarang. Terima kasih kenaikan harga minyak dulu-dulu. Hujungnya saya cuma membeli betik jingga kesukaan. Gembiranya dapat diskaun RM0.50. Oh makcik ponsikou kio!!! Mudah-mudahan bisnes makcik terus maju dan maju maju jaya. Pas ni bukan berniaga di siring jalan KFC lagi. AMEN!! Bagi lagi saya diskaun.
Di bawah old snippet taken by my sister Bugi last year in November. Masa itu musim tarap berlambak-lambak di Ranau. Dan buah tarap ini Uncle Bontoyon yang tolong jolokkan. Dari dusun arwah bapa. Hasil arwah bapa berbakti pada tanah dapatlah terus merasa buah eksotik ini.

Dulu-dulu sewaktu kecik berhingus lagi, saya selalu mendengar cerita kononnya bagi orang semenanjung tarap ni hanya makanan monyet. Tapi tidak lah tu. Oh... tarap ni satu famili dengan cempedak dan nangka. Macam nangka juga boleh dibuat gulai lemak. Sedap juga dicampur sup ayam kampung. Belum pernah saya terbaca info khasiat tarap. Apapun dia memang sedap!!!

Oh... tarap yang masih muda sadap dibuat sayur!!! Persis memakan sayur nangka!!! Sadap dibuat gulai lemak atau dibuat hidangan sup + ayam kampung!!! Cubalah kalau tidak pernah ya!!!

T.E.R.I.M.A. K.A.S.I.H.

2009-01-19T02:21:00.001-08:00

Terima Kasih Tuhan
I thank God for the many splendid things in my life... yes I do... and yes I do forget to thank Him for the many splendid things in my life too sometimes!!! I'm just human. With uncountable flaws. But try to be a better person I do too.

Well, all of my batch TESL Cohort 2 were strictly not allow to stay in the hostel this semester. Of course I was devastated to get the news!!! Together with Has, we've planned to be roomate this sem. We wonderfully talk how fun it will be... especially when it goes to watching her English series collection. But yeah the dream was shattered into many broken jars. Sob sob.

Ceritanya LUCKY ME... there is place I still could go after I got the news - like 3 weeks before. My sis' house. F.O.C. No RM70 deduction. 24hours wireless connection. What else??? No worry about transportation coz I car pool with my sis. Unlike some of my friends. They have to went through many troubles. Search for rental house. Budgeting things!!!! ETC... don't mention about diorang pergi merayu minta tinggal hostel. Sungguh tidak berperikemanusiaan orang-orang atasan itu. Dan alasan juga tidak konkrit!!!

I got a phone call from Salina yesterday. She was like expressing her worry that their batch will also face the same thing!!!! And now they are like trying to book the seniors' rental house so they won't have to go through the hassle of searching for one. Yeah... they might face the same thing. Thanx to the superior people who are so not professional of handling such matter. They should take the subject we do this semester - PROFESSIONAL DEVELOPMENT. Hmmm....angin sampaikan mesej ini pada mereka. Duh like they even care for such argument!!!

S.T.U.P.I.D. P.L.A.I.N. I.D.I.O.T.S!!!

2009-01-18T05:33:00.000-08:00

I got emergency call!!! No... no.. my Sesame Street ringing tone didn't ring. The emergency call was not signify by any of my cells. Yes... my love Batu 3310 didn't shriek out her beautiful voice bah, OK!!! This emergency call was toneless. Well, thank God it cooperated so obediently to be in silent mode this time... at this mom... during class... Mr. Georgie's class. Well... not that I am like Yan bah juga!!!

I had.. really had to dash out from the class. The toxic really needed to be flushed out of my system. Thank God the ladies was just above our class. Just few staircases. It felt like walking on the stairway to heaven, oh!!!

I opened the first nearest door to heaven. OMG!!! Stink.... and tissues swam inside the toilet bowl. Not heaven at all. Second door... S*** this is hell!!! The scene was really distasteful. A knot of tension and infuriation started to form within me. Third door and so on.... same yucky view... tissues, the yellow urine, the bad odour.... how I felt like smacking someone hard on the face sampai gigi dia berterabur keluar!!!

Just who were the I.D.I.O.T.S. who committed all of these sins??? M.O.R.O.N.S.!!! I am hot... of course I am hot with R.A.G.E. I couldn't believe it - well I have to believe... teachers - to - be didn't have the sense to clean up their S.H.I.T. after they've done with their business, investment, whatever name they have!!! Here in GAYA!!! Well i guess these type of morons are everywhere. How stupid and how sad. Someday they will ask the students to keep the school's toilet clean. Ironically, they don't know how!!!

Now, I had to walk farther which made me feel even madder, tak guna. Smuggled myself into the lecturer/ staff washroom somewhere. Hopefully di sana saya tidak perlu kencing atau berak di atas najis sesiapa yang B.E.B.A.L. macam....
P/S: I should done some photo blogging actually for this post... nay... geli mau tunggu di jamban lama-lama!!! Nanti Pn. Salmah marah kalau dia nampak.

- BLOGGING ROCKS LIFE -

2009-01-13T06:34:00.000-08:00

Kami di UiTM Main Campus Dataran Dah Lupa Nama

Yan as in the pic with me aka Hajah (since she wore her jubah made in the holy city of Mecca - I tell you) surely rocks!!! I guess she is the first to embark into the world of blogging in our class. Blogging - I'm not referring to friendster blogging of course!!! Cool cool Yan!!! Hopefully one of her asset wil not go kembang-kempis upon reading 'Cool, cool Yan!!!' Hehehehe... just kidding kio Yan!!!

This is testing... testing power... my first post (though the blog is not erm... that fined tune yet)!!! As my blogger friend Khairunnie my dearest junior back in high school said in her blog Shouting To the world!!! Am I shouting to the world?? Erm... I don't know... testing power done!!!!